this is who i am i promise

as wonderful and as terrible as behaving like children

not saying what isn't

words that punctuate themselves//racing to a...

when you're enjoying it so much all you can think is how much you want to hit the back button, to interrupt the present and push it back so you can start again ( Read more... )

and finally because i knew this feeling would come and i would have to just sit with it. just sit with it. meditate with it, chant with it, stare and stare at it. but try not to think about it ( Read more... )

i will not forget everything i learned everything. this chance at focusing something to be proud of something. needing no-one to remind me who i'm not ( Read more... )

 trying not to talk, trying to talk, trying not to say anything, trying to say something ( Read more... )

 lighting candles, baking, icing christmas cookies, resdiscovering lust, the orange coloured longing that fades when i forget myself and offer what i don't have. alone, more than just a few minutes of build-up followed by a few seconds of gratification. A commitment to myself & to independence & the world outside myself. i am not living a half life ( Read more... )

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I don't voice my opinions very often, for fear of sounding as ridiculous as everyone else.

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we are awesome.

inertia and excitement.

clawing back the sense of self you loose when you give

i always write in the present, i love my beautiful tiny room, i look around it and think that it is filled with treasures and safety..

what are you going to do

no sleep, los angeles ( Read more... )