well, I did that one last thing that I knew would have bad results.Some thing is not right with me, I gave up everything for no reason at all.Now I've lost my home and my guitar. I'll never be able to make up for it. I am truely sorry.

Had the desire to pick up a CD, cuz it's been forever. Found Mudvaynes' first for 9.99, so I figured, shit why not? I did love that album, still like it alot, totally worth it. Goin fishing soon, I think. It's too danm nice out not to. I didn't do it at all last year and was pretty pissed about that. Started going to church again too, I liked it ( Read more... )

She told me at half after midnight, that she was 10 mins from being home. I finished my close abit late, and she's still not home. I;m worried, cuz cops got xheckpoints all over tonight. I really hope she didn't get picked off tonight

day four, no drugs. I'm surprised. I swore that after I got off probation I would never stop smoking pot for any reason. I then changed my ideas about that when I started going to school, that I would stop....after I got all my degrees and was ready to start a real life. It all kinda caught up with me though. I'm not finished with drugs quite yet, ( Read more... )

so the plan is......skool as normal. Then a blunt smoking session w/ my fellow douche crew. A trip....out to Albany to see "Inland empire". Then probly trip on out to see Aqua teen. Then I start my cleansing. Ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Fucking need more caffiene. need more money too. Need more of everything really. But I'm gonna stop bitching and go ( Read more... )

so, my holiday is coming up in 3 days. I will probly make the most of it. But I am takeing some time off from decadence after, figured finals is a good time for some mental and spiritual cleansing.

Ambition comes with a price attached. Of course, that price comes too high if you die for nothing. The reward for ambition too great.....is self-destruction------gutts

OK, so here's my logic. I killed someones 19th b-day 2 years ago. Repayment, all dignity in my house was detroyed never to be regained. A fair trade? I guess I could look at it that way if I was a spoild lil suburbon, ignorant douche-bag. But hey, since I'm only a douche-bag, I'm pretty pissed.I have to see my neighbors every fucking day now. With ( Read more... )

so I got to eat, which is a plus. Saw 300, not too bad. I really want this semester to be over. At least spring break starts after tomarrow. Then an Easter break, I gotta focus during these times though. I could really fall behind if I don't ( Read more... )

That's the plan. Wanna be bymyself, since I've pretty much have been since thursday, now I'll choose to be. So, I'm out for the day.Peace