i was watching and listening to old shows and old music. 
all of those memories, feelings that i was feeling at that time came rushing back.
wow, i had pushed aside and brushed off a lot of feelings and pressures.
its interesting because upon reflection i realized how much stronger i have become
how old experiences that were once so difficult have ( Read more... )

"you can't handle the truth ( Read more... )

First I thought, “I’m hardening and I hate it”. But actually.. NO!:
I’m staying true to myself the only way I know possible. Situations that I have been placed into these past recent years  are times I am continuing to despise, and will I think always. More as a lesson, than as bitterness and resentment though. I’m fighting the change within me. I ( Read more... )

i remember having friends ( Read more... )

twelve years is a long time.
in twelve years you can get to know a lot of people, and familiarize yourself with a place very well.
i knew all of the secret back passages, the underground sewer walks, the greenbelt, the crazy lady, the viper dude, the maybe pedophile.
there is history that is formed in twelve years.
in twelve years.. neighbors become ( Read more... )

*He was a friend of mine. Because everytime i think of him, he was a friend of mine ( Read more... )

I'M BEING SOO HAPPY RIGHT NOW :]

well, right now i'm at work.

this lady sheila always comes in like every 2 weeks. and sometimes more often, idk shes like an every day mall-goer. anyways, she comes in to say hi to me, because she thinks i'm funny, which already makes me feel good about myself.
,..cuz you know how there are those people out there that ( Read more... )

on [Jan. 25th, 2006|10:35 am] i wrote ( Read more... )

betrayal.
my friend asuchica in her profile used to quote, "trust no one and no one will ever be able to betray you".
confiding in someone is sometimes helpful because you release stress, but it must be something that has to be done with caution always.
i am constantly reminded that friends are just friends, friends come and go, family is forever. i'd ( Read more... )

i've made a lot of choices in my life. some good some bad. i've learned from past mistakes.
"no one ever said growing up was easy"
i believe that everything happens for a reason. and that some will walk in and out of your life, some will stay. and love overall, lasts forever.
right now, i'm missing those that drifted.. reason or not.
i'm wishing ( Read more... )