"I'm tired of fighting," she said ( Read more... )

feeling incredibly awful today ( Read more... )

*smiles*
silly girl.
tonight is now officially dedicated to
drinking a glass of wine
taking a bath
and reading 'pride and prejudice'
tomorrow is going to be a great day.
i cant wait.

iam moving back to florida May 14th. im going to live with my family while i find a job and such. then i will be applying to nursing school. then when i have everything on track i will be finding my own apartment.
thats what i got so far.
*shrugs*

iam in *such* a horrendously bad mood right now so iam going to write about all the things in my life that make me happy ( Read more... )

iam in love.
with my car.
it's a 1996 GMC Jimmy Truck
it runs. it's perfect.
life is perfect.
at this.
exact.
moment.

today is one of those days when the waves of self defeate seem to be overtaking me and the more i try to struggle against it, the harder it becomes to stay affloat....and maybe a part of me wants to drown ( Read more... )

so ive decided to pull my head out of the sand and start doing something about my fucked up life ( Read more... )

i have now officially run out of productive things to do. jack has actually slept a lot today....which is good because iam very jittery and unable to sit still for very long today, which is a hard thing to be when taking care of a 5 month old baby ( Read more... )

day done. night here. and by the sweat that leaves her brow the son of god appears. she clenches her eyes, the feel of her knuckles white from their lies. and back and forth and back and forth and back and forth she rocks saying to herself and saying to herself the prayers that she forgot. and as she bows her head to cry she sings herself a ( Read more... )