There are good days. I assure you ( Read more... )

No I'm not numbing myself with distractions ( Read more... )

She is so pretty.

Skinny and blonde. Upbeat, perky and outgoing.

Always dressed up, hair done, heels on.

Young. Irresponsible and irresistible.

Fun.

Everything I'm not.

Congratulations.
She's everything I couldn't be.

I really do hope you're happy.

I mean this in the most non-cynical manner ( Read more... )

I can't sleep.

It's hopeless at 3 in the morning.

I'm tossing and turning.

I can't quit.

Sometimes at night, in the dark, I put on my coat ( Read more... )

Christmas, my birthday and New Year's are just around the corner ( Read more... )

You know what the good news, the silver lining is?

I can do whatever I want and I can go wherever I want.

I'm only responsible for me.

I know who I am and I know, for the most part, what I want.

So, nothing is going to stop me from being happy.

I'm a good person who loves to laugh. I have values, standards and a faith that will pull me

I've been trying so hard ( Read more... )

The truth is ( Read more... )