Everything is so random . The more you plan, the more fucked up everything gets. It's crazy when you stop and look around and realize how far you are from where you thought you would be . And you hold onto things-memories and objects that tie you to these memories. 'I can prove that really happened to me and not to someone else - no one else ( Read more... )

Home is where my heart is. Even if it is gray: it’s still beating and pumping the same red mess throughout my body. The body that feels DEAD most of the time but is nonetheless quite young and very much ALIVE. How can I feel so empty but be so full? It’s like my soul is starving but I don’t know what to feed it. And I rummage through the cupboards ( Read more... )

Cavernous inside for the longest time and then there you were to awaken my senses . Colors existed again- especially red and I could feel my pupils getting large. This enmity inside disappeared for awhile and you made me laugh - I can still smile. I allowed your hearts juices to inundate mine . I was hopeful again. Hours after we kissed my taste- ( Read more... )

I think that some people are truly destined to do nothing. I think of these dreams I have and although it can be fun to dream: of all the things I could be , the things I could do or places I could venture - I know that they are just dreams. It's sad but true. It's like the ugly girl staring in the mirror day after day and repeating "you're ( Read more... )

Because I'm pissed off and the whole world owes me. One girl in particular is going to be very sorry that she has a hard time keeping the bullshit from spewing from her lips. Life is beautiful , it really is.

To give yourself to someone so completely. You put so much faith into someone and you think maybe when you're falling they will be there to catch you. Surprise is not the word to explain the way you feel when you fall flat on your face because youre not shocked. But to say I love you and... Because the moment you profess your greatest love you ( Read more... )

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Because at the time everything was so surreal. The colors were brighter than usual and the sounds smashed into my eardrums with such an intensity that my brains exploded-no they imploded and then my nose was bleeding SO red like my hair when it's ironed ketchup and my eyes thick puddles of mud. Speckled.like a frog. sitting on a speckled log eating ( Read more... )

your rotting heart refuses to shut its cry hole and the skin on your soul festers with scurvy.

My insides like a cavern for so long. Dark and hollow and my heart all stinky and sodden with misery. And then there's you and HOPE?? I didn't think I could do that anymore and my frown lines were so deep. It was so strange at first to really smile. But I did and I invited you into ME. And you were so sweet and you made yourself right at home. And ( Read more... )