Comments | prettyasmurder: Hungry, anxious for pain+

prettyasmurder

Hungry, anxious for pain+

Aug 30, 2004 23:53

I started to update about my day but then deleted everything. I don't understand and definitely can't put to words what's going through my head. Pain in my pleasure when I feel like this, but all I can do is choke back some useless tears.

I want to tell you so bad that I feel like I'm losing you, but to something I can't quite put my finger on. I ( Read more... )

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mausoleum_door August 31 2004, 08:18:28 UTC

I hope you find what you're looking for. You know I'm always hear for you, but sometimes i think that's not exactly what you need. love.

prettyasmurder August 31 2004, 15:32:12 UTC

I don't know what I'm looking for, but at the same time.. don't we both know that we're looking for the same things? Through all those late-night half-drunk talks, we both know what we want out of life and what we still don't understand of the world. We both know that we don't belong here, with these people or especially a "9 to 5" job. We're just not like that.
I just want to be happy, and I want you to be happy, too.

Love you.

_tumor September 1 2004, 05:34:44 UTC

howabout a midnight to 8 job.

as soon as you graduate.

GOD FUCKING DAMNIT

prettyasmurder September 1 2004, 07:25:10 UTC

Haha, aw, yeah.. you're amazing for that.

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ravishinglover August 31 2004, 14:23:25 UTC

I love you so much Amanda.
Once you are ready, I will take you far away from the bullshit and show you the many many things someone that I loved once showed me.
You will find the world to be a beautifully devestating place.
You will find that love is such a passive, yet aggresive thing.
You will find that everything is hypocricy at it's best and that nothing is quite as meaningful as it is in the dark.
Everything will get better.
Just remember, get through now, and you can live tommarow.
Tommarow for you and me isn't that far away.
Love you much baby.
<3 Brenda. Mosh.

prettyasmurder August 31 2004, 15:43:36 UTC

I love you, too, Brenda. And I wish I could tell you that I'm ready now, but there's still that little part of me that tells me not to leave just yet.
I would write more in response to everything you told me, but I think I'm going to go off on that when I update later tonight.

All things aside, "tomorrow" will come sooner than I know it.
You're an amazing friend, long distance or not. Thank you.

HEY nearly_craven August 31 2004, 17:51:57 UTC

hey amanda .. i saw you at the mall :).. first time in a while .. LOVE THE HAIR .. well see u thursday in school :( *yay* ...

feel better ..

Re: HEY prettyasmurder August 31 2004, 22:40:43 UTC

Aw, hey. Thank you so much, :) I totally don't know what to do with my hair anymore, but it's nice to hear that you think it looks good! It was great seeing you in Enfield that night.. like you said, I haven't seen you in awhile. Come Thursday, blah, I hope we have classes together or something this year. Are you still taking Chorus??

I'll add you to my Friends list.