him: you really are perfect for me. and it pains me to say that.

Jesus christ. My life is so fucked up right now.

I tried again to update and my computer fucked it all up. But it lacks any importance, I guess. The one person who I hoped would read the entry, most likely wouldn't bother to say a word about it to me afterwards.
I miss you, Brad. That's all.

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I attempted to write about why I haven't been updating over the past two weeks, but there's no point. I haven't been incredibly busy or anything, just lost the motivation to write, I suppose.
I've had a lot on my mind my heart lately.

I'll update something good tomorrow when I have more time.

"and i scream for the sunlight or a car to take me anywhere.. just get me past this dead and eternal snow, cuz i swear that im dying.. slowly but its happening, so if the perfect spring is waiting somewhere, jsut take me there... and lie to me and say its gonna be alright..."

You're amazing, Brad.©

This weekend was suppose to be a chance to get away from this town, but no, it fucking sucked. I am so pissed off at my "friends" and moreso just myself. I need to get out of this town but I at least need somebody to tell me they're here for me. Because it really doesn't seem that way anymore ( Read more... )

Early dismissal priveleges this year are so good. Alicia and I get out at 12:31 on "I" days and 1:23 on "V" days, so that's twice a week with the schedule rotation. Then I brought her out with me afterwards. Holy obsession, I spent 136$ at the mall.

I've sold a bunch of the tickets already for Taking Back Sunday, Atreyu, and Funeral For A Friend ( Read more... )

Ooh, totally ready for the Taking Back Sunday, Atreyu, and Funeral For A Friend show in November. It's the first show that all of us are going to together, you know.. us. We've got the plans all figured out and it's going to be such a good night, I'm so excited to see Garrett and them perform.©The next three days of classes are going to be so easy ( Read more... )

I'll eventually get over this little stint of not wanting to write. It's just not holding my interest lately, but there are a few random things that I can say and put to good use in my journal ( Read more... )

Ugh, I haven't updated in 5 days. I really have no desire to write now unless it's some random hour of the morning, like I had been doing the last few weeks of summer. Oh well, I'll keep it up somehow ( Read more... )

I started to update about my day but then deleted everything. I don't understand and definitely can't put to words what's going through my head. Pain in my pleasure when I feel like this, but all I can do is choke back some useless tears.

I want to tell you so bad that I feel like I'm losing you, but to something I can't quite put my finger on. I ( Read more... )