No matter how drunk the person was, it still feels good to hear that in reference to you someone said
"If I hadn't let my friends talk me out of dating her, I think I'd still be with her."
And it feels even better to hear the mutual friend that they said that to say "You don't deserve her."

Its amazing how much people change and how much they stay the same. I feel older(more mature) than I ever have. Things don't bother me like they used to. I don't fall in love so much anymore, I just love people all the time but its not like an "in love" feelings. Its more of a like, but I don't think I just like anyone. I love everyone. Okay, not ( Read more... )

I wonder what my parents would do if they figured out that at 1am, instead of writing a paper for my history class in college that my parents are paying for, I'm trying to figure out the best way to get my hair to sit on top of my head and why that was such a cool style in the 90's.

you have this way of loving everyone else in the world but me.
I guess I got tired of trying. Or maybe I just never tried hard enough.
And you'll never ever guess that I'm talking about you because you're too oblivious.
Sometimes I wonder if you only have me as a friend because I'm the one who initiates things.

Nicole and I got married.

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More and more I'm starting to feel aggravated and disgusted everytime I see him. The awkward conversations and hint of uninterest make me cringe. How the fuck can you spend almost every day for nearly 2 weeks with a person and then all of a sudden decide you don't give a damn about them. Makes me want to throw up. I don't fucking understand how ( Read more... )

I hate knowing things are coming, but you ignore all the signs because you don't want to believe it.

Yesterday at around 2pm, Adam broke up with me.

I had the craziest dream this morning. I went to class and then came back and took a nap and thats when the dream occured. I dreamt my boyfriend was cheating on me. I was crushed. I kept trying to convince myself in the dream that I was dreaming but there was no evidence of it. And then I was talking to this girl about it and she kept singing this ( Read more... )

9/11/06 Okay so today is my birthday. I am now officially 19 years old. I don't feel very different. I feel awesome because I am wearing a home-made pin from Nicole that says "IT'S MY BIG DAY!" Its pretty grand. But anyway. The real reason I'm talking about my birthday is because I'm 19. I want to feel different this year. Not because I wish more ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wish I could be meaner and say how I really feel when I'm angry. But I know later I might regret it and in the long run I'd just be saving myself the trouble of resolving a fight. But sometimes I really wish I could just be like "fuck you. you are not nice to me, you neglect me and you do not deserve my friendship."