Food Log ( Read more... )

I want to get back into posting on here. I have gone through a lot since my last posts. I have started eating a good amount again and stopped cutting. I have been learning to cope with bipolar disorder, and somehow managed to get on my feet. I got out of the toxic home environment and moved into an apartment with my two friends. I am back in school ( Read more... )

Havent logged here in a while. things just kinda went crazy. Hard times with my dad being in town...not good ( Read more... )

game plan failed me. finished the apple yesterday. it was small so it couldnt have been more than 60 cals. my friend had all my favorites at her house. it was the worst. i ate some chips (210 cals) and had one of her moms homemade oatmeal raisin cookies (75) it was sooooo good. ugh why does food have to taste so amazing. took two diet pills and two ( Read more... )

reached my first goal weight today! but only lost a pound :( i need to work harder. time to work for the next goal weight.
yesterday i ate :( i had some dinner (about 200 cals) and some watermelon which is on the list of negative calorie foods but still about 50 cals for my journals sake. according to the det i could have 400 cals so idk. im torn ( Read more... )

only lost 1.8 pounds, so just one more pound away from my first goal weight ( Read more... )

yesterday: chocolate 125 cals. wrap: 200. bite of chinese: 25. celery: 0 ( Read more... )

yesterday ate 420 calories. drank my weight in waterr. and didnt purge once ( Read more... )

i feel so alone and empty. sure i am still breathing but nothing really fills the hole or ends the sorrow. i feel so stupid and prissy and pathetic for all these things. i hate food with a passion. food has calories and calories are the worst part of life. i try so hard not to eat but after a few days it is difficult not to. fml ( Read more... )

Sigh. Today I went to the outlets with my mom and close friend. It was fun....i think. Its still hard to tell if something is fun. I ate half of a sandwich, a bite of pizza, and a few fries today. I believe I had under 1,000 calories today. I feel sick to my stomach. I almost threw up just thinking about how much I ate today. Why am I so gross ( Read more... )