Tsunami in Japan, and warnings all over the the American West coast. And a few weeks back, I saw this article in the Toronto Star about solar flares. And I think back to AM radio, and the warnings about the solar flares, darkness and heading towards high ground when the three days of darkness begin. Plus all the biblical stuff, and next year being ( Read more... )

The concept of a trigger is fairly new to me, but it is something I am highly susceptible to. Until recently, I didn't realize how susceptible to them I am. I've been known to get extremely upset and/or emotional over relatively small occurrences. I tend to overreact. Triggers activate my deep, inner fears, which include, but are not limited to, ( Read more... )

To really examine my excessive use of words referencing mental illness. Even today, crazy, nuts, psycho, etc. all came up in conversation. It's totally not cool. I'm really surprised by the language in my previous entries ( Read more... )

So. Just now I decided to go way back to the beginning of my blog. I'm only one or two pages in when I encounter the extremely sexist and otherwise offensive "GTA Barbie" list, re-posted by moi, who at the time, found it hilarious. Groan ( Read more... )

So, I am very frustrated today. While I feel eloquent and clear, I was largely unable to communicate several important points today. First we have my friend B, whose Facebook status earlier was telling of how he saw a man, dressed in only a garbage bag, have his bits exposed by the passing train. This seemed highly offensive (having to witness such ( Read more... )

I feel like I need to share this site everywhere. Little examples of the kind of racism I see and hear every day. Being white makes me privy to many attitudes and comments that people of color likely mostly experience in subtle, yet obvious-to-them-and-not-the-offender ways. There seems to be a huge assumption amongst many white folks I meet that ( Read more... )

I've had this dream since I was child. I won't lessen it by calling it silly, but I understand if you do. My dad traveled frequently, and after he and my mom split, I went with him on many occasions. Business, boring, from what I recall. Looking back on it, those were very happy times, somewhat of a rarity in my childhood. Dad seemed more at ease ( Read more... )

It's been about 3 weeks since I saw Renock last. 3 weeks since I gave him some herbs that he wanted to try and make a profit on. 3 weeks since I knew, in my heart, I was soon to be out $50. 3 weeks since my subconscious put him to the test. 3 weeks since he failed.

The lyrics "players only love you when they're playing" come to mind. This seems ( Read more... )

A close friend of mine has been making fatphobic comments for years. Many people I know and consider close have, myself included. Much of this takes the form of self-loathing and poor body image. Just yesterday, she told me of a fat woman she'd seen, who had difficulty climbing stairs, and about how this had motivated her to come to the gym, ( Read more... )

Right now he's in a state of coming. He's back, in Toronto, in my peripheral. I don't know what it is with me and this guy, my archetype, but it's something. His words on Saturday night suggested he wants to solidify something with me. My instinct is retreat, given the lack of faith I have in him, and given our history. My instinct tells me that ( Read more... )