I wrote a poem. It's a sad one. I just really want to cry right now, I'm so exhausted from all this drama from the last two years. I'm just so sick of it. Nobody has faith in me anymore, nobody believes me that I'm going to give it up. Give him up. I don't really love him. I was trying to force myself to. No idea why. What kind of stupid ( Read more... )

Yeah. My life exploded again. It's about to get better thoguh. It won't be bad much longer. I'll be glad for that. That should happen either tonight or tomorrow. He lied to me. BIG time. I'm angry about it. But...it's good too. Because it's going to help me get rid of him for good, which I am quite happy about. Very very happy actually. So ( Read more... )

So my life is insane. I wish everything would just stop. That I would know who I'm supposed to choose. That I wouldn't hear a million different voices coming at me at once, none of them my own thoughts. Everbody else's thoughts are invading me. So yeah. It's absolutely crazy. I'm not too happy. In fact, I'm on the verge of breaking down. I'm ( Read more... )

I am setting myself free. I am totally and completly sick of this, and of how stupid I'm being. I'm setting myself up for misery the rest of my life, but I'm not going to stand for that anymore. So um yeah. I'm good now. And I'm going to go ahead with all my plans for UNF and everything else and no stupid boy is going to stop me and I am NOT ( Read more... )

Life is grand.

Today sucks. Period. Was trying my best to have a good one. Something ruined it. Would rather not relive it. Stupid boys. Not all of ya'll, just some.

I've determined that in order to really overcome my depression, I need to get a job and then move out. Which will be hard. But I really need to do it, and I will. Things suck and they're not getting any better if I sit around here doing nothing but school. Now as long as I can get better from the chronic fatigue...then I won't have a problem. ( Read more... )

So things seem to be looking up. Last night I was really depressed. Some good happened. Not depressed anymore. I hope it doesnt come back though, it seems like it might. It comes back during the night normally. Damn bipolar. Sucks. Actually I might be something in addition to the bipolar. Sucks even more. But oh well. I'm not drowning ( Read more... )

So I'm doing better. Sorta. Okay. I will be doing better very soon, I'm almost positive. I am in the process of writing a long letter. It will do the trick, I hope. Or else I'm going to be even more depressed and that will not be good ( Read more... )

Beautiful Prison ( Read more... )