So lately it's been an emotional mini roller-coaster. Illnesses(almost all of them!) acting up again. Secret wishes being played out, coming realized. I'm becoming depressed again. Some reasons exist for it. Others don't. I miss a lot of people terribly right now, even if they're right here with me. They're not really here at all, yet they ( Read more... )

So half the reason that I've been so sick is that I had mono sometime recently during hte past year. THat sucks! I'm soooo mad. More on it later. Perhaps.

break has been mentally exhausting as well as physically exhausting. i have done many things, and gotten myself very sick as well. fun times. they think that i have a heart problem instead of a thyroid problem. yay for the doctors finally at least trying to figure things out. josh thinks he's dating me. that needs to end. i just got word that ( Read more... )

Today is my birthday!

So I really don't have much to say. Dragged Kaitlyn shopping again yesterday. Actually she wanted to go at first and THEN I had to drag her in order to find something for my brother-in-law. And I did find something. And apparently I bought some porn for my sister. But really they're just books. So all my Christmas shopping is finished now. ( Read more... )

Aaron, Kaitlyn, and I all hung out last night. It was...exciting. Really. No. I had to go Christmas shopping and drug them along with me. Except that I couldn't find any of the things I was looking for and by the time we got to Target we all seemed a bit cranky. But I was hungry. And really cranky b/c Aaron was there and I'd just come to a few ( Read more... )

Aaron and I ended things last night. I'm still extremely upset. I don't want to talk about it. Only Kaitlyn and Rebecca will know. For personal reasons. And they're girls. So yeah. It doesn't make me happy right now.

Yeah so I'm goign to try to tell Aaron we can't do anything anymore because I feel too guilty. I really don't think it's goign to work b/c everytime I talk to him everything gets all better and I'm not sad anymore. Which sucks. So yeah. I'm gonna try though.

Ugh! So freakin frustrated! Nothing goes right. But oh well. FIne then. It won't go right. I mean. Everything is perfect. ANd I should be happy. But I'm not. Because nothing is good. I'm sorry. THis makes no sense as well.

Yeah. I messed up again. Bigger this time. And feel not the least bit guilty for it. Which is quite bad. But yeah.