well im getting alot more involved in the central ohio underground streetracers.... im a car racing club... "dedicated to have the meanest and fastest cars on the street.... its just too bad that they are all slow and the only car faster than mine is a dodge stealth, soon to be twin turbo... thats incredibly sad... i get the new transmission today ( Read more... )

have you ever done something wrong just because life sucked and nothin mattered? when life finally turns itself rightside up you cant stop thinking about how much you would give to take it back? yeah... i know everyone has... but this fucking thing haunts me... im always depressed about it, i have taken on an apathetic approach to life... i try to ( Read more... )

Life really sucks right now.... the only things i look forward to are racing on the weekends and seeing my parents... i have nothing else... i look forward to not waking up sometimes.... im back to work at tp mech.... later every1!

Yes fuck you too.... i know your innocent only reading about my worthless life but hell FUCK YOU too. My parents think im selling drugs... what a laugh.... they want nothing to do with me, but hell this has happened before so fuck it all im not doing this shit again..... its just too bad i dont have a gun.... id go to my parents house and make ( Read more... )

Now she is happy at OU... fucking great.... i thought it was bad having to sit here not being able to do anything while she is crying her eyes out about being miserable... but no... as always someone in the sky hates me very much for some strange reason... because now that she is happy.... all i hear is how happy she is away from me.. having her ( Read more... )

Now to the subject i only touched on a little bit, her wanting to come home... god i would love nothing more than to be able to hold her in my arms every night... Im sure noone really knows what it feels like to die... but i feel like i die ( Read more... )

I thought that when you love someone with everything you have to love with, your happy when they are... but im learning that it doesnt work like that at all.... when shes sad.... i go into this mental state where my emotions numb and i feel almost nothing, when shes happy though.... i dont feel the need to be 'strong' and comfort her so i let go ( Read more... )

Blah... the dreaded day came and went... it sucked, i could barely look at her without a tear running down my face. Everytime i talk to her on the phone, i get this mixed feeling... half is soo happy to hear her voice, the other dreading her phonecall because when i hang up.... the horrible feeling comes right back. I was freaking sick this ( Read more... )

WHY DOES LIFE SUCK? I TRY TO BE PERFECTLY NICE TO EVERYBODY, BUT THAT GETS ME FUCKED IN THE ASS... EVERYBODY IS SO FOCUSED ON THEMSELVES THAT THEY DONT STOP TO THINK ABOUT ANOTHER PERSON FOR A SECOND.FOUR PEOPLE SHOULD DIE... JEFF, JOSH, WHITNEY, COURTNEY. YOU SAY THATS HARSH.... I SAY FUCK YOU... UR LAST SPRING BREAK WITH THE PERSON YOU LOVE IS A ( Read more... )

today was alot of fun... it all started like normal... 10 am i was over at kris' house so we could go to church, after church was over we took a tour of the church... you wouldnt believe how big this place is.... its way bigger than it looks from the outside and from the outside it looks huge... on our magical mystery tour we saw a little tykes ( Read more... )