My therapist wants me to start journaling so here I am.  I feel pretty crummy right now.  I've been on a bit of a cash high since the holidays and today I found out that my credit card is maxed, I only have $20 left in my discretionary account, and I still have to come up with another $300 before the 26th.  Shouldn't be difficult, so I'm not ( Read more... )

I'm friends with the monster
That's under my bed
Get along with the voices inside of my head
You're trying to save me
Stop holding your breath
And you think I'm crazy
Yeah, you think I'm crazy

My body wants sleep, but my brain wants poetry and love and light and beauty.  Body seems like it's going to win the battle tonight, but it has compromised greatly this week in brain's self-actualization endeavors. 

Posting this and hoping the link still works in a few years when I need answers. I guess I need them today because the world is hurling them at me left and right. Seems poetic how the world answers your questions when you stop searching for them... Leave a comment

It occurred to me tonight that I haven't posted publicly for quite some time.  So here it is.  Me.  Speaking publicly about being awake at 1am. 

• it sucks.
• the dog that kept me awake seems to finally have decided to shut up.
• There's a line in a Bon Jovi song that says something about not being alone doesn't mean I'm not lonely.
• I'm pretty excited about ( Read more... )

The human body is still my favorite.  I'm sure I could learn something new every day about shoes or coffee and not be as in love with either.  The husk that protects our souls, or at least keeps them here on earth?  Yep.  Love it ( Read more... )

Thank God for everyone else's patience. And love and other things. Patience is my current favorite, though.

Yesterday was a very special day for me.  And not in the way that you might think.  The first thing that I did to make myself feel special was I accidentally ordered two pizzas.  Rather, I ordered the same pizza... Twice.  Then I woke up to a dream where I was a gay man.  I went shirt shopping with my boyfriend in this cool place.  The bottom floor ( Read more... )

Take the light, and darken everything around me ( Read more... )

Hello and Thank you for joining us at 2pm on a TuesdayOn the lineup for this afternoon's entertainment are "Packin' with the Pros" and "Scrubbing Ain't Fun," along with our special guests: Mr. Pork Chop and his lovely assistant M. Potatoes! We'd like to remind you that our program supports health school lunches and the War on Terrorism. Don't ( Read more... )