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[prettytyedup]

 I've been lying to myself for so long that I hardly know what the truth is.

I love you.  Shit, most of you.  I love me.  I say these words, i write them, i feel them, but do I act on them?

I DESERVE BETTER
I deserve to be loved in return.
I deserve to be spoken to with respect.
     (these things i had to have beaten into my stupid, numb fucking

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[mesmericsoul]

I love how confused I feel after reading that.

<3

[prettytyedup]

I love how confused you feel period.

Remember who I write for and leave it at that.

*hugs*

[mesmericsoul]

Who you write for? I know that Andy, and myself both read your livejournal. Also, Nic, and Megan have access, and they may or may not read it. Most likely Nic won't read it, but there is a good chance that Megan would.

Also, you have a couple other friends that may read it. None of them I really know their names, or really even know them.

[prettytyedup]

When I write in my livejournal I write for myself.

Yes, I have given many the access to read my thoughts with the hope that they may take away from my experience a tidbit of wisdom to apply in their own lives. But when I write, I am working merely to regain peace within myself.