I absolutely hate that I can't figure out what I am supposed to do.

I can't sleep.
I wish I could.
I miss my mom.
I miss my brother.
I miss alot of things.
the house is so hot.
maybe the ac is broken.
I finally went to the emergency room.
it took a good 5 hours.
my mom bought me food.
and we hung out.
it was nice.
my allergies are atacking my face.
it sucks.
I want some pepsi.
please I just want to sleep.

so I'm leaving for austin in ten minutes

I am useless.
I am a piece of shit
and I know it.

well I'll start off by saying...I am not happy right now. something is a miss. I can't quite figure out what it is but it sucks none the less. I'm displeased with myself and a few others. some one made it sound as if I was on the verge of cheating on Andrew and that really irritates me. I like andrew soooo much. there isn't anyone else who has my ( Read more... )

so it's been a while as usual. I don't tend to write in this enough I suppose. anyway...so life lately has been good. real good. I found someone that I can spend time with that genuinely cares about me and that makes me happy. however the stresses of reality seem to come crashing down on both of our heads. he is stressed to the max. and I don't ( Read more... )

life is amazing despite my mom and her insanity. I love everything right now. I love her so much. and I'm glad. my brother is the coolest. he is wonderful. my favorite people right now are as follows...ali, cristina, lynette, jacob and andrew. I'm just so happy. it's rediculous.

ok so here's the deal. I don't think I've ever met anyone that compliments my personality to the same extent that Andrew does. is it possible that there is someone out there as amazing as this guy? seriously. I get butterflies every time he kisses me. it's insane. I'm 21...butterflies it's awesome!!! I finally found my artist. I'm seriously in awe.

so I haven't written in a while. life is good. I am hoping to move into this place of westhiemer with ali. we are gonna fill out the app today. my friends make me happy. they are my family. my mother insists on barraging me with religion talks. it's not that I don't believe. it's that I am appathetic to it. that's sad. but it's the truth. I'm not ( Read more... )

well. life seems to be going wonderfully. which is a suprise. everything seemed to tumble in on my head leaving me with out a clue as to how to pick up the pieces. I have some good news. ali and I are probably moving to houston very soon. there is an available apartment above andy and randy. it's a good location during the day...at night however ( Read more... )