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"you were better to me
than i was to myself.
for me there is you
and there ain't nobody else.

i wanna stop
and thank you baby
i just wanna stop
and thank you baby..."

"And I'm going straight to hell,
All the possibility and promise just,
Weighs on me so heavily,

And I try but I'm not convincing,
Your lips they pout and twist and,
I die trying just to keep myself from kissing you,
You take in everything with a certainty I envy
It's somehow all I need just keep me guessing please,

Oh darling all of these awkward jump- ( Read more... )

today worked sucked.
so i quit.
(two weeks notice, cuz i'm polite.)

anyone gotta job i can have?

i HATE it when people say
'your such a lamer.'
its YOU'RE.
YOU'RE.

and some guy on MTV's "70's House" spelled 'liar' wrong.
'lair.' ....what a joke.

i hate things like that.
did people just not pay attention
to the repetitive 12 years of english class?
its the same thing every year.

what have i become? for reals.
i'm way too 'whatever'now.
and theres not a flicker of determination in my veins.
ps, my self control packed its bags and moved out
like a week ago

i am out of control and my war cry has become:
pills pills
work work
stress stress
coffee coffee
debt debt debt oh crap, debt debt debt oh crap, debt.
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a night of stones, cleaning/redecorating my room, and a full pot of coffee.
ah the life of lauren.

and to chris, harrison, billy, carrie, and kev:
you all made my lonely night (which ended in drunken parental yelling)
            great.
my apologies for ditching you guys for an angry house.
and i want to be around you all so much more.
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that even parents are human.
why do they have to be so twisted and insane jealous and conniving.
(not mine, another's)
and some just dramatic, insensitive, deaf people.
(mine)

i think the worst pain a child can feel
is being hurt (emotionally, physically, mentally)
by a parent.

ps i wish someone could really understand why i feel the pain i feel.
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went to feed the homeless this morning but they had an excessive amount of people already. there was some kind of mix up with the schedule.so instead me and the other ladies went to harwin and bought some nice beads & baubles.

angel left today. Camp Lone Star for a week.
:p that sucks.

my bassist Butch called me this morning and said

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i keep seeing pictures of people who went to Cornerstone
and its so not fair. im so freaking sad its unbelievable.

batman is an awesomely awesome movie. poor angel, i made my own little (thats an understatement) commentary throughout the entire thing, until i had a revelation that i might be a bad person to see a movie with. she still faked enjoying ( Read more... )