I'm lying to my best people

I've drawn to you like a herion addict

Seeing that face made me feel higher than a bowl

I know this is wrong I know I'm not doing right by me

I just can't stop messaging she makes me happy

I don't know why it just feels right 

The world without me....

Dana-No one to relate to will blame herself but stuff it down and take care of everyone else.

Jake-will be angry and call me selfish.

Kevin-Shut down and not talk about it.

Mom-Talk about it way too much.

Grammie-Angry,hurt

Janet-Sad and blame herself

Heather-Blame herself not talk about it.

Beth-Shut down,get mad and ( Read more... )

Everytime I pull the top of my hair it brings me back to you,

Everytime I think of night driving I think of you

All the woman so many memories

How is it possible that I love you

The stars was you, you were right no one can take that

Oh you my sweet kinky femme princess we had some crazy times

My Angiel god we had fun didn't we darling my truck ( Read more... )

I should have known better drinking, meds and pot lead to spins I went to bed I don't know if I was on my side but Boomer licked all the vomit off of me I woke up 3 hours later and stripped my bed felt so stupid I could have died you think that would wake me up it didn't I'm listening to sad country songs missing my wife I lost my wedding ring I ( Read more... )

I miss you, I miss you so much it felt so right. I haven't written about Friday. I didn't even have time to process before it was gone. I picked you up in a snow storm and got lost and you didn't freak out. We made it and you made me pizza it got burnt and we laughed and ate ice cream. You seemed so at peace we talked and smoked. You were falling ( Read more... )

Path of the White wolf

Viewing life events in a different light and see what was shrouded in darkness.Pay attention to everything in your environment. hey,oh,ah,ya,an,ha

I have 50 % male and 50% female I love tutus and short hair. i love who i am finding myself to be I'm a warrior f.-irst l-ove y-ourself i wanted to fly but not fly like i was thinking this person is awesome and funny and beautiful and handsome i love them so much I'm so sorry i let them hurt you i won't let it happen again your too important too ( Read more... )

I am quite aware I'm molting I'm going into my raccoon I'm not the above person anymore I'm not the one that she married I'm stronger I've earned these scars i own them and they run deep if you can't handle that than I'm glad your gone you can't be my friend and not love my scars their who i am I'm not broken your right i won't allow that I'm ( Read more... )

Filling my cup with my music

Cuddling with Boomer

Disappear with my love

Disappear with the memories

I don't need the pictures

Disappear with my love

I' ve slacking on my working on me

Filling my time with Tinder, Bumble, Okcupid

A new they making me smile

How odd and uncomfortable having a voice to the face

I'm not ready

But I want snuggles ( Read more... )

When will I be free of these demons ( Read more... )