OK, I got Marilyn's pants and a shirt she let me borrow back to her earlier. I hope I didn't wake her, I was just passing through, and I know how tired she was. She seems a bit annoyed with our relationship right now, although it's understandable. I have been worrying alot even though I have nothing to worry about, and I got a bit weird with her RP ( Read more... )

I realize that Marilyn loves me as much as she ever has. She just gets frustrated at me thinking I'm not good enough for her, I need to get that through my head. I know I'll always have her, and I do trust her. I 've just got to learn that she will never leave me, and I have nothing to worry about. Everyone is right, it is just in my head. I love ( Read more... )

I realized, Marilyn loves me as much as she ever has. Alot of the problem I keep having is thinking I'm not good enough for her when I actually am. She promised we would always be together, and I promised I would always be there for her. I just need to know that and not worry. I trust her, I just need to get it through my head that she will always ( Read more... )

Today went pretty good. Got to hang out with Renn, Ryan, and Sarah abit. I didn't get to talk any to Marilyn, but she wanted a day off today, so I guess I'll get to talk to her soon. I miss her, but I know everything's ok. I couldn't get ahold of her to see if she was going to Amtgard tomorrow, so I'll head to her school like usual, and if she is ( Read more... )

Today went pretty good. I decided to relax as much as possible, I trust Marilyn, and I am not going to worry about anything today. She's been busy at school taking care of senior slideshow stuff. I have good news to tell her, and I got to tell her what happened to Renn and I last night. I can't seem to get ahold of her, but I'm laying off the ( Read more... )

I had a nightmare last night that I never heard Marilyn say how she felt to me again. I'm feeling kind of depressed/lonely right now. I know her and I are at a stage where we don't need to say it so often, we already know, but I haven't heard her say it in awhile, and I think it's making me a bit depressed. Even though it goes without saying, it ( Read more... )

http://www.geocities.com/darth_carth84/index.html?1117601078270 OK, I got the guestbook on my website working incase anyone would like to sign it or something.

Today went pretty well, Marilyn came over to my grandparent's to have dinner with the family. She gets along with them pretty well, and likes the idea of my family being inlaws. I'll be able to sleep pretty good tonite, well, after I'm done cleaning anyway.

This is sad, I have my dad's digatil camera for awhile, but nothing to take pictures of!! I wanted to get a good picture taken of Marilyn and me for the part of my website that I have my fiance' mentioned in, but I'll have to either wait for her to start liking cameras, of catch her off gaurd. Can't blame her though, although I'd atleast like to ( Read more... )

Things I learned today ( Read more... )