So life seems harder everyday. I thought I had a bad head cold, which I did have a little bit, but I realized the real reason I feel so sick is cause I am so unhappy. I finally get a chance to go to see about therapy tomorrow. So the "healing process" begins. I am hoping they are gonna start me out with some medication because dealing with this on ( Read more... )

Hey people...anyone like to go to the auto show as much as I do??? Didn't think so. Not to be mean to any of my chicas, but I would rather go downtown with a guy. I have no one to go with and I have two tickets. And everyone wonders what all the reasons are for my depression?? Gee let me think...lol Oh well at least I can laugh about some parts of ( Read more... )

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Ok so yesterday I was in a really bad mood right? Yeah sorry for those who got upset when reading yesterday's entry. I'm just glad I am back into the gist of writing in my journal because believe it or not, it is helping me with letting things out so I am not so totally upset all the time. Now I am just more confused than anything. My cousin and I ( Read more... )

I am finally disgusted with myself and I can't believe that any guys would even look at me. I feel like I get fatter everyday. I am so ugly and so fat that it seriously makes me ill. No matter what anyone says or does, all I have to do is look in the mirror and begin to cry. People like me shouldn't be allowed to eat. I wish I could just give up ( Read more... )

Well my weekend was crazy!!! Friday, Me, Amanda, and Ashley decided to hang out and since we didn't know exactly what to do, I thought of how Sean told me he was having a party and I could stop by. So we called him and asked him where he lives and shit, then went to his house for the party. There I met up with Sean and Jason for the first time ( Read more... )

I haven't written a real long time and since there is nothing else to do I ( Read more... )

WAZZZUUUPPPP??? So tonight was pretty cool! I finally got a chance to hang out with Megan and catch up on one another's lives. I worked until like 8:30 and got home around 9, then went to Megan's house to chill. We took a walk for like an hour and a half just talking about one another's problems. That was pretty cool, I love Megan she is so nice! I ( Read more... )

Last night was pretty boring! But I finally got a chance to hang out with Martin. Me and my cuz Sam stopped by there last night since we were so fucking bored! It wasn't all that fun, but hey it was better than sitting at home. Too bad he isn't trust worthy, cause something about him could make a girl go wild. lol I know I would give him his chance ( Read more... )

So I took a step back in the past today.....I thought about my ex again. It happened that way because I talked to his brother on aol earliar and I began to cry just talking about him and everything. I miss him so much and I wish I could just tell him how I love him, how I want him and want to be with him, how I miss everything and how I would do ( Read more... )