I woke up this morning feeling a tingle of anxiety, but I wasn’t sure why. After an hour+ of Yoga X, the tingle was still there but I was more centered in spite of said tingle. I went through my normal morning with my kids. I wrote a check to the school, dealt with an EMO outburst from my daughter over the kids’ reward charts, inspected shoes ( Read more... )

I figured out at a pretty young age that I needed to be something to myself before I could be anything to anyone else. I built a pretty good life for myself. And then came a good 9 years that I was sidetracked from myself because I was dealing with someone else’s bullshit. In my healing from that I have often wondered how I could go from being ( Read more... )

My kids and I came upon a wishing well yesterday. Ok, more like a wishing fountain but that’s not the point. I pulled out two pennies for the kids to make a wish. Aidan stared at the two shiny pennies in my hand and said “you too mommy, you need to make a wish too”. So I dug out a third penny ( Read more... )

Last week was my birthday, 37. There's no arguing it, I'm close to 40 now which means someone...somewhere...maybe even me...has to start taking me seriously ( Read more... )

Since the holidays I have been feeling better than I've felt in years. I have felt more like "me" than I have felt...I can't even count how many years. I laugh about "the new adventures of the old Christine" recognizing that I'll never be the same but in so many ways, I'm an even better me. I'm dreaming more and giggling about nothing and ( Read more... )

So I read this book over the weekend...it was a good book in the sense that it has a happy, Christie type feel good aura to it. It also made me reflect...a lot more than I care to when reading a "mental popcorn" book ( Read more... )

I took my trash to the curb last night and stood on my front steps finishing a cigarette, as always. I was feeling peaceful and content. Don’t you love those “normal” moments when some epiphany hits you? I used to stand in that exact same spot on trash nights and feel mountains of anger and resentment. I didn’t have my kids by myself, I didn’t ( Read more... )

One year ago today I was traumatized in such a way that I was forever changed. I helplessly watched as my daughter was traumatized by someone who should protect her every bit as much as I do. That trauma, this day shook her very core. By extension the events of this day traumatized my son. And so began what I have come to term "the season of ( Read more... )

We all have them. How do you handle it when someone crosses yours ( Read more... )

I am very particular about the claim counts in my files. I was filing a response today in which the claim count was screwed up in the last response. I noticed that I didn’t file that last response. “Who the hell was messing with my response? Why the fuck didn’t I file this” I thought as I sifted through the papers in the file. Then my eyes fell ( Read more... )