Bout time I posted

[princesshortie]

Wow, I can't believe that I haven't posted for 2 months. So many things have happened in 60 days. I don't even know where to start or what to say exactly. It’s amazing, reading back from my last post, how happy I was. It’s weird to think of that great time when everything was all well. It was such a happy time, to think what was waiting for me and

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[bumpystik]

I'm so sorry for your loss. everyone deals with loss differently, you shouldn't worry about what you are or aren't doing. You are obviously very affected by this, and no matter what you won't grieve forever, you may not grieve for an extreme amount of time but you will think about him, maybe not as often as you think you should, but you do have memories, and those memories will come to you at the most unexpected moments, they may make you laugh or cry but his memory will live inside you whether you think about it every day or not. <3<3<3

[slacker1985]

Oh, Monica…you poor thing, I love you so much and I feel so bad for you…. And you’re right, while I can empathize, I cannot feel precisely what you’re feeling right now…but I can tell you that everything you’re feeling is normal. I can’t word this any better than the person in the first comment…but you are definitely not heartless; anyone who knows you, I’m certain, can say that with confidence. It is perfectly normal to feel confused, to not know what it is that you’re feeling, or how you’re supposed to feel, or even not to know whether you should cry. I think perhaps one of the reasons for that is that when these things happen, we worry so much about what we’re supposed to think and feel and do, that we physically prevent ourselves from displaying the emotion that we’re really feeling somewhere inside. Your family is also dealing with this, in their own ways. It is only natural that it would seem awkward to you; it’s probably awkward for all of you, unsure of your own emotions and even less sure of those of the people around

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[manillaice]

so j.c. and i are running around six flags magic mountain by ourselves (he was 12 or 13 and i was about 9). it's just the two of us, cuz the adults went off by themselves. anyway, he wants to ride all the hardcore rollercosters, and i'm scared shitless. only i can't tell him that, or he'll make fun of me, so i stall as long as i can, until finally it's like 4:30 and the park closes at 6:00. so he insists that it's time we got to the 'good' rides, and i play it off like i'm cool with it. so we ride the 'ninja' which was the fastest one in the park. after we got off, he i was like "that wasn't so bad", even though i was freaking out the entire time. so he asks me if i wanna go on another one (i think it was the anaconda, or the black momba or something like that), and i'm like "yea, no problem". and he says "ok, but this time, open your eyes." i was sooooo busted

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[princesshortie]

I'm so sorry Rog. I didn't mean to get all public with everything. I just had no one to talk to and I was having a bad day and I had to get all my frustrations out somehow. I'm trying so hard to be strong for mom because she's had it so rough but I catch myself crying in front of her, 2x already this week, which is really bad because she needs someone strong for her now. I'm worried about her. I think she's getting sick. She's not sleeping well at night and she doesn't want to take meds

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[manillaice]

i posted a lot on lj too, and it helped a lot. but you can switch the security settings to "private" if you don't want to bother with the obligatory "i'm so sorry"s and "if you need anything call me"s (which i'm sure are heart-felt and sincere, but don't really do a lot of help). that's what i did. plus it's a completely depressing subject, and i didn't wanna bring any of my friends down with me.

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[princesshortie]

yea, i know what you mean. I had fun the other night. I hope u did to... oh... and I didn't cheat!!! :P