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[princessitsy]

Title:Healing
Author: PI
Pairing: Castle/Beckett
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: STRONG STRONG trigger warning for torture, sexual assault, PTSD
Summary: Kink Meme prompt: Castle is forced to watch Beckett being tortured, hurt/comfort follows. So yeah, major, major angst.
Disclaimer: I don't think Andrew Marlowe and Terri Miller  or ABC would appreciate what I'

Comments

[tinlizzie82]

Oh. My. God.

This was so perfectly done I am rendered completely speechless. Really. I am in awe of the way you managed to go just far enough and also your understanding of the results.

Like this: She looks around, naming items. Television, book, table, laser tag gun. Nothing feels real, it’s all a bit fuzzy around the edges. What a perfect illustration of disassociation.

So, so, so glad you posted.

[princessitsy]

Thanks! Honestly I struggled quite a bit with portraying the aftermath so I'm super glad that felt real to you.

[tinlizzie82]

That was the best part. Although your serial killer was pretty damn good too, and Castle's reaction, and ... oh, heck I liked it all.

And now I shall be nosy so feel free to ignore this part if I shouldn't ask, but you said in the note at the beginning that the twisted (and I'd actually call it brilliant) thinking that created this sort of story might be an occupational hazard and that made me oh so curious as to what your occupation actually is (why yes, I do have rather a large dose of shameless Castle inquisitiveness in me).

[princessitsy]

Thanks again!

No problem with the curiosity! I work with survivors of domestic violence and sexual assault and have studied both pretty intensely. It leads to some twisted thinking.

[sincerelylovely]

Oh my word, this is really, really well done. Thank you for sharing it with us.

My favorite line was, "She’s caught him reading articles about ‘what to do when a loved one is raped’ and ‘how to treat rape survivors.’" That just has such a reality to it that it really struck me as something that both Castle would do, and something that anyone in that situation might do. It really drove home the fact that they are emotionally struggling and they are both going through a healing process. I think that makes this a really interesting piece because the hurt/comfort is so balanced, as opposed to one person hurting and one person comforting. They love each other so much that they are forcing each other to go through the motions together.

Okay, that got long-winded, and I apologize ;) Anyway, thank you for posting.

[princessitsy]

Wow, thank you so much!

Don't apologize for it being long-winded! I'm glad it struck as true to you, because I worry I get caught up in my own head too much and don't lay things out well.

This is amazing!

[anonymous]

This is so, so good -- I was so scared I almost felt sick for the first half, and in the second half you do such an amazing job of portraying both their traumas. This is so excellent!

Re: This is amazing!

[princessitsy]

Thanks!

It's such a compliment that it pulled you in like that.

[hummingfly67]

Really well done. Great tension and fear in the torture scene, like that you did both their POV's. Kate's reactions during and after, totally work.

And like tinlizzie82 said about the disassociation, spot on.

Kudos!

[princessitsy]

Thanks so much! I'm so glad you liked it.

[cartographical]

this is REALLY great; you do an AWESOME job handling their emotions.

[princessitsy]

Thank You!

It was tricky trying to find the balance between over the top and real when it came to the emotional side, so I'm glad you thought it was awesome.