Things are going MUCH better for me. I had a few weeks that were awful but I am feeling greater than great right now. I have a lot of things to take care of still. But I am feeling stronger than before. I need my friends. I need you SO much right now. I need the support that will help me stay stable and meds aren't the only thing that will help. I ( Read more... )

 Nothing has changed... I doubt anything will ever change. Just when you think it's going to say well, it goes bad again. What should I do? I am so confused about so many things. It is overwhelming. I am slipping and I don't care this time. That's all I have to say.

 I sit and wait
Does an angel contemplate my fate
And do they know
The places where we go
When we're grey and old
'cos I have been told
That salvation lets their wings unfold
So when I'm lying in my bed
Thoughts running through my head
And I feel the love is dead
I'm loving angels instead

And through it all she offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
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 I know I just updated a few hours ago... but I really need to get stuff off my chest. I feel AWFUL!!! I miss her so much... I can't tell her because it would make her feel weird. I believe in honesty. I believe in telling people how I feel about them. But this isn't going to work out that way. Sorry but I can't continue with this entry. Bye.

 One.
Word.
Answers.

1. Where is your cell phone?
purse

2. Your girlfriend/boyfriend?
missed

3. Your hair?
split-ended

4. Your mother?
survivior

5. Your father?
crazy

6. Your favorite thing to do?
sing

7. Your dream last night?
heart-breaking

8. Your Favorite Drink?
coke

9. Your ex?
gone

10. Your fears?
abandoned

11. What do you want to be in 10 years?
cured

12. Who did ( Read more... )

 Hi I am finally posting an entry. To be honest, I haven't been feeling too hot. I won't give up, though it's SO hard right now. There is a person who is not in my life anymore and it's killing me. Just killing me completely. I am grieving still after having been since I was fifteen. I'm in touch with her by mail but that's it. What if she dies? ( Read more... )

 It's been okay. I had my 21st birthday on the 27th. It's weird being 21... But so far it's been good. I have my big party on the 27th of April in Concord. I wish you all could come, but I know Concord is far away from you all. But there will be a lot of people and it will be a lot of fun. But I am inviting all my friends and though it would be ( Read more... )

Just wanted to say, I DID buy those jeans that I wrote about in my last post. BAD GIRL!!! Love you all! Write a comment. Make me feel special!!

 I'm feeling MUCH better than last time I wrote. Thanks to whoever listened to me. Just some time with Akira made me feel better. We kind of sort things out. I did some SERIOUS shopping with Donna on Wednesday!!! I spent too much but I got some great stuff. At Old Navy I got some $8.00 kacki pants, a $17.00 zip up sweater that is too cute! At Gap I ( Read more... )

I'm SO confused right now, but I won't say why. And I'm very depressed. I wish this feeling would go away but it doesn't seem like it will. I HATE THIS!!! There are just some things in my life that I wish weren'r there. When I think these things I get so depressed. I hate life. I wish there was no such thing as life. It would make things easier ( Read more... )