I'm so nervous... My recital is in one week and my allergies are bothering me so bad I can barely talk, let alone sing. My chords hurt and I can't stop caughing. It's a deep, loud cough that's probably waking up everyone in the apartment now... SORRY! I need to get better. I already prayed about it (yes, I'm very religious so don't make fun of me ( Read more... )

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I had lessons today. We went to the recital hall and I did my song on stage. I'm an awful performer... I kept making faces when I didn't like how it sounded and I didn't stay in character long enough. BLAH... I feel bad for Andrea, having to put up with a student like me. I would hate it if I were her. Rochelle is definitely coming! Maybe Mindy too ( Read more... )

AAAH! My recital is in two and a half weeks!!! June 7th at 8pm at Concord Community Music School. I'm nervous. I haven't had a performance in 3 years! It'll be okay... I hope!

Today is awful. I can't explain it other than that. I should just get in my bed and not come out until tomorrow or maybe the next day.

yay! My recital is in 3 weeks! On the 8th at 8pm! Wish me luck... I need it so bad...

I give up.

no more seroquel! Now I'm just on 9 meds! YAY!

I had another bad dream... I cannot handle this anymore.

I had an really bad dream last night. So bad that I can't get it out of my head. It's when my mom almost died when I was nine. She had epilepsy so bad that she had a seizure while driving with me in the car when I was 7. She had had epilepsy since age 13.  She had grand mal seizures and would get hurt and once forgot my name. When I was 8 they ( Read more... )