So I havent posted in forever and someone asked my why, and its because i've moved to myspace.

heres my link: http://www.myspace.com/13567020

it's still under a bit of work, havent quite figured everything out.

I really hate myself. I've become exactly the person that I never wanted to be, and swore that I wouldnt. I need to change it, and now before it gets any worse ( Read more... )

Amanda I'm so so so so sooooooo sorry for what happend. I love you with all my heart and I hope that you're okay. Be strong and take care of yourself. if not for you then for me. i cant wait to come home for homecomeing weekend to give you your ring and to hang out at the game with everyone! It's gonna be a blast ( Read more... )

I try and I try yet all I get is nothing. The only thing that I wish for will never be mine.

WHATDOYOUWANTFROMME?WHATDOIHAVETOSAY?WHATTOIHAVETOGIVE?

Everything in life is fine. Some things great for that matter. But these few things just keep eating at me. There eating at me because I know I'll never have them, or I'll never live up to them.

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i've come the the conclusing that this place is verry boring.

So these last few days have been, well bad. But I woke up today and thought maybe it'll be a better day. The weathers nice and I'm sick of feeling like shit ( Read more... )

blah. i just read my past few entries. i sound like such a bitchy little girl.

im done ranting about my love life now. or lack there of.

lastnight when i thought things were getting a bit better then yet again crashed before my eyes ( Read more... )

i hate this whole walls down uncontrolable emotions shit. i have no control and no clue whats going on. i want to leave this place and everything to do with it because its all fucking with my head. Those walls need to go back up. And they need to stay. Forever. I hate fuckin emotions. They make me feel so weak. So vunerable. So open. I dont want to ( Read more... )