I actually may get to sleep in my bed tonite. I'm almost certain Tom Tom isn't going to ring me tonite cause well he thinks I am mad at him. I wasn't mad, simply annoyed. For one cause I am confused on exactly what we are. we aren't a couple but we are exclusive cause he refuses to share,so where does dating fall?? Its just too confusing, but ( Read more... )

Its true, equal to the expression when one door closes, another opens. I've never really thought of things in that fashion though. I always figured when something was over or closed, it would open again eventually. Technically, this it true,especially for me. Josh slammed a door in my face just like others before him but those others have returned ( Read more... )

I'm more of a myspace blogger though. Things have been an uphill battle as of late but isn't that always the way ( Read more... )

Andrew sent me an e-mail he sent to Josh. It was long and and well weird. It talked about how he was lucky to have attained my heart and foolish for not thinking I am worthy. I was like oye, why!!!I'm grateful though cause for Andrew to try so hard to help me out means that he really cares ya know. He worrys about my state of being and I mean ( Read more... )

ok, i must make it a point to have a good day today. I must try really hard to be more optimistic. I woke up so early today like 5 AM, then again i was in bed by 9 last nite, god I'm old. Anycrap, so I got up, ate some pizza...I know I know unhealthy but it was there, then I got on the stationary bike for a little bit. I skipped the run cause I ( Read more... )

I think I know now why I am so upset concerning Joshua. I have noticed a direct correlation with how much I miss Christopher versus the drama that unfolds and sadness I feel around Josh. I was putting so much weight on this so-called relationship. I'm not over Christopher. I Am still madly in love with him and probably always will be. I wanted ( Read more... )

Josh lectured me on my life so that he wouldn't have to address any issues we were trying to discuss!! I have taught him too well. He wants to hangout thursday I think he said but I dunno, he'll probby forget by then, lol. Isaiah sent me such a sweet e-mail concerning my last blog, he is so very nice. I'm tired but can't sleep, I have all these ( Read more... )

I read my horrorscope and it talked about the impossible resolution to a situation that is haunting me. Unfortunately that could pertain to like very sitch in my life, from moving, to josh, to friendships gone south. I don't know if this applies to everything ( Read more... )

so ya, he called but I didn't answer. I broke down and called him last nite. It was an unusual fight. I felt like I was talking just to talk, it was awful. I couldn't make a clear point, I guess I was too frustrated and too angry and too scared. Why does nobody understand me ( Read more... )

"And the best part of my life is the worst part of your day" Splenders Save It Later, I'm addicted once again. Josh hasn't called or e-mailed since he got back from Spring Break, I'm certain thats what he thinks I want or he is testing me to see how long it will take for me to break but I won't. HE'll call by the end of the week probably with no ( Read more... )