Its funny cause I can go from sleeping a ridiculouse amount of hours to being unable to sleep at all. I officially loathe the holidays and am a nervous wreck about spending christmas with johns family. Ill be meeting some his friends too I suppose and i am so afraid about what impression I will leave on them. For the first time in my life, i am ( Read more... )

Disney has tried to kill me. I swear it. I developed a terrible kidney infection that I am still getting over after about a week in the hospital on morphine. Morphine is a lovely thing btw. I miss home terribly and cannot wait to return except that it will kill me to leave my darling John behind. We are planning many lovely trips though, none ( Read more... )

Some people don't see what really matters at the end of the day. Why though? Maybe cause they are too distracted with their own lives, issues, mishaps, who knows? Its sad but true that some people will so easily let go a long friendship for something so menial. I thought I had a really close friendship with someone, I even called that person my ( Read more... )

I'm a little confused on different situations...the more important ones I suppose you could say. Things are going pretty good with Josh and I so it isnt that. Meagan is attached to my hip and my brother and parental units and i haven't seen each other in about a week or so which means unfun family bonding this weekend. THE HORROR THE HORROR. ( Read more... )

Ya I am hyper and yet strangely relaxed. Counting down the days till i go back to Lousiana. It sucks cause Josh can't go and I am going to miss him so much. Its going to be a long damn three days. Not even together a month and we barely spend time with each other. He works the weekends and I suck as a girlfriend, lol. It was cool though cause ( Read more... )

I am so sick that I am even taking medicine,hardcore antibiotics and I never ingest chemicals that are healthy for me. The Corsica's radiator cracked and had to be replaced, but it burned up the thermostat so that had to be replaced but the car still runs hot. This is a problem cause we may have to stay with my sister till next week,an extra 4 or ( Read more... )

Damn Damien Rice with his sad songs. Yet they make so much sense. "I can't take my mind off of you...until I find someone new." It makes oh so much sense but what if you distraction from your infatuation turns into a really bad situation? Get over it. So thats what I should do but my distraction isn't exactly the easiest to refuse or let go ( Read more... )

I just had a two hour drunk nap. The type of nap where you are drunk but not drunk enough to sleep or to throw up. The only reason I did fall asleep is cause I was absolutely exhausted. I was hanging out drinking wiht thomas last nite and we got into it cause I got a little emotional and was missing my friends like meagan. He thought it was so ( Read more... )

Thomas and I had a talk earlier...more of a fight but it led to some resolution. We decided, err rather he decided that we should just be friends...perhaps that is what bothers me. The simple fact that he made another damn decision for me. He says I chose but I never said a damn thing. So now I am completely alone. I haven't been alone since I ( Read more... )

Myspace is being gay. I want my Myspace...NOW...NOW. Anycrap, Thomas called me spoiled which I am but ya I didn't really see the point in him telling me to basically grow up. It just isn't his place. I got a wonderful surprising phone call from Isaiah and Mikey today. Mikey asked me why I never call him...cause i don't have his number...DUH. ( Read more... )