Why do I keep forgetting that there is no such thing as a fairy tale ending? Love is simply a foolish notion for the naive. Relationships never last because everyone is too selfish, cynical, or jaded. Its better to lock your heart away in an unbreakable chamber rather than be deceived and destroyed. I need to stop deluding myself that there is ( Read more... )

Something needs to change.. I'm not living, I'm barely getting through each day. In order to live up here in NJ I've been working so much that I've lost pretty much all my friends and it kills me. The occasional visit with Gloria always helps but still.. -sigh- Zac and I are having problems which of course makes things worse. Everyday it gets ( Read more... )

Feeling really lazy so here are some quick updates in the life of Raye ( Read more... )

I wanted to stay friends with you. I really did. Your words that day made me so excited cause i never wanted to lose you completely. Not long later though you changed your mind and said you would cut me from your life. I warned you if you made the attempt I would be done with you. So you did it. I hope you are happy and I'm sorry things could not ( Read more... )

I just dont know if i can fucking handle this shit anymore. There is just too much stress and too many problems. Everything fucking hurts, mentally and physically. I dont know what to do about my future and i can't stop thinking about it. I am hours away from people who actually love me yet in returning to them i'll lose my independence. I will ( Read more... )

The Life Experience Test
Overall, you have partaken in 97 out of 174 possible life experiences.
Your average life experience score is therefore 56%.

The average score is 48%, making your experiences more than 69% of the people who have taken this test.
The average for your age group (18-25) is 43%.

Broken down by category:
Art: 8/17 (47%)

Career & ( Read more... )

For once Justine and I decided to plan a diner trip. We are thinking friday night cause Kris should be around. Yes? No?

I guess its time I actually updated. So where did I leave off? Oh yea, the trip to Japan and Taiwan was awesome. Lots of fun was had, met some cool people, got lots of nice stuff, had amazing food, saw beautiful temples, and overall had a great experience. I can't wait to go back ( Read more... )

Kyoto was an awesome week spent traveling all over the place and let me tell you, bullet trains are amazing. They are fast, convenient, and free when you have a shiny JR Rail pass. Unfortunately we were not able to go to the one place I wanted to; Ritsurin Coen, the park I went to my first year in Japan. We ran out of time and couldn't make it to ( Read more... )

So today we went to a temple in Kyoto then went Osaka to an awesome arcade. There are details I'm too exhausted to write. But it was a fun day of travel and hanging out with Aka. Also, i found out some bitch did steal from me at my job. Fucking whore, I hope she gets AIDS. Um... yea, night.