Derek Glen Graber's Aliases

Your movie star name: Red Vines John

Your fashion designer name is Derek Tuscany

Your socialite name is Derelicte Pheonix

Your fly girl / guy name is D Gra

Your detective name is Tigre North Allegheny

Your barfly name is Crunch Bar Martini

Your soap opera name is Glen Locust

Your rock star name is Skittles ( Read more... )

it's been a while since my last entry...so I guess that I should probably write somethin down ( Read more... )

I think i need to see a psychiatrist. I know Jess told me to check into it a little while back, but I really think that it might just have to happen. I'm not happy, lately. I can remember when nothing could get me down, and no one could make me unhappy. I was happy to be living in LA, happy to be going to school, and happy to be alive. Now, I'm not ( Read more... )

so i think i'm going to go out and look for a second job tomorrow ( Read more... )

I will not make the same mistakes that you did ( Read more... )

so i'm sitting here on my day off, and recalling the past week and a half. I really can't even believe that I've been in LA for 2 years. It seems like only yesturday that I moved here, bright-eyed and innocent, and now I would like to call myself somewhat of a veteran. I can't believe it's 2005. Wow. I turn 21 this year. WOW ( Read more... )

today i spoke with my neice for the first time since she was born. She's only a month old...so there wasn't much speaking...

lots of coo'ing...

it made me want to go home for a long time....but i can't.

and that makes me sad.

i haven't cried in forever. I feel like i'm in fight club or something. I feel like i should cry-it's healthy. for whatever reason. but I haven't. I have been too caloused to care when people hurt me, I haven't had a boy make me cry in happiness for a LONG time, and i don't know...i just haven't cried ( Read more... )

I was "Adam" for halloween

It was fucking hot

Pictures later...

for all of you who think i'm cold, hard, and calloused...this is the reason why. Every single time I give a little bit of 'me', and open up, and try to be the person that I so want to be...it always ends up pushing me to the ground and kicking me repeatedly. I don't open up, because, apparently that's not the side of me that people want to see. ( Read more... )