Not a memory, more of a comment that there's a lot of LJ reflection lately. Lots of people (myself included) posting about how things were and how they are now.
I know what you mean. Then again, we're all "of an age", aren't we? Perhaps it's as much a function of that, as of t'internet and LJ and everything else changing around us.
I wrote something a while back here about how my memory works. And I will never forget you. I don't forget; I remember moments, hours condensed into photographs, somehow getting lost with you looking for a station that should have been five minutes away, standing in the cold under sodium lights I don't walk under any more because there are too many memories there (not just of you). The first time I met you. I hated the top I was wearing. It was glittery but it scratched at my wrists and made me not able to concentrate. I can't remember what colour what you were wearing was, only that it made it imperative that I hug you.
I wonder fairly often whether you even remember me at all. :) It doesn't matter, if you don't, honestly.
I lied to you a couple of times. I'm sorry.
Unscreen if you want to reply, and leave it screened if you've nothing to say :) I don't mind.
I read it at the time, actually. And I guessed you wouldn't forget me; I didn't know how you'd remember me, though. Occurances aren't emotions.
I remember the hugs, and quite a lot more besides. :) I'll never forget you either, honestly.
What did you lie to me about?
I'll leave this screened for now, but I do want you to reply. I guess depending what you reply with, you can choose whether I should unscreen one, both or neither...
I never exactly wanted you to hypnotise me, not really. I wanted to want it, because you wanted it, and back then I would have done anything to be what anyone wanted. But I was more terrified than I even told you, I think. Well. I don't know how scared you thought I was :)
But I know I told you that I wanted you to, so I did lie. It seemed important to lie about that at the time as long as it got you to stay around. Sigh. I was very young.
And you were very strong. I'm glad you remember me, at least. I don't remember which tube station we randomly ran into each other in, but we did, and it felt like there was a reason. I guess there wasn't? I don't even know, any more, really.
I honestly don't care about you unscreening things~ everyone who knows me knows how ridiculous and pretentious I can get about Oh God The Past. :)
Hehe. The two possibilities I had thought of regarding the lies were: 1) She never really wanted to be hypnotised, and 2) She was already being hypnotised by someone else.
:)
Yes, I knew you were really, really terrified of it. I didn't mind though - it wasn't why I enjoyed your company. Then I realised I just hadn't seen you for ages, and probably wasn't even in the country any more, and well, yes.
I don't remember which tube station it was, either. And I don't know if there was a reason, either. Strange things happen in London. I would like to see you again, sometime, though. :)
(I say this too much, given whenever I do make it back to the UK I end up seeing only a few of the people I've said this to. But I mean it every time.)
I've been thinking a lot about blogging and the death of my blog due to an over use of facebook/twitter. Now I find I'm not even using Twitter or Facebook as much. I'm the wrong person to suggest getting back into blogging as I rarely do it myself any more but I did always enjoy your posts.
Awww this has made me feel all mushy. I think you should update more. Even if it's just to say "this is where I am, this is what I'm doing" every six months. I'm ashamed to say that I can't keep up ;) Even though we don't talk much any more I hope you will always consider me to be a friend. I don't think you have ever pissed me off. Miss you! x
I guess I should. I kind of assume people will follow facebook for that kind of info, though... I don't know! Maybe I'll do that more. (Though I am firmly against LoudTwitter and all it represents.)
I will always consider you a friend, Cel! Miss you too. Hope I'll get to see you and the girls again before too long. x
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I know what you mean. Then again, we're all "of an age", aren't we? Perhaps it's as much a function of that, as of t'internet and LJ and everything else changing around us.
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And yes I agree. I think for a lot of us who have been here 5+ years we're at a point where we're of an age to be reflecting on this sort of thing.
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I'm never quite sure about this whole being-a-thirtysomething thing. I've been feeling nostalgic since I was aware of memories, mind you.
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Also: you're the only person I use net-speak with. I really enjoy it.
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I wrote something a while back here about how my memory works. And I will never forget you. I don't forget; I remember moments, hours condensed into photographs, somehow getting lost with you looking for a station that should have been five minutes away, standing in the cold under sodium lights I don't walk under any more because there are too many memories there (not just of you). The first time I met you. I hated the top I was wearing. It was glittery but it scratched at my wrists and made me not able to concentrate. I can't remember what colour what you were wearing was, only that it made it imperative that I hug you.
I wonder fairly often whether you even remember me at all. :) It doesn't matter, if you don't, honestly.
I lied to you a couple of times. I'm sorry.
Unscreen if you want to reply, and leave it screened if you've nothing to say :) I don't mind.
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I remember the hugs, and quite a lot more besides. :) I'll never forget you either, honestly.
What did you lie to me about?
I'll leave this screened for now, but I do want you to reply. I guess depending what you reply with, you can choose whether I should unscreen one, both or neither...
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But I know I told you that I wanted you to, so I did lie. It seemed important to lie about that at the time as long as it got you to stay around. Sigh. I was very young.
And you were very strong. I'm glad you remember me, at least. I don't remember which tube station we randomly ran into each other in, but we did, and it felt like there was a reason. I guess there wasn't? I don't even know, any more, really.
I honestly don't care about you unscreening things~ everyone who knows me knows how ridiculous and pretentious I can get about Oh God The Past. :)
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1) She never really wanted to be hypnotised, and
2) She was already being hypnotised by someone else.
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Yes, I knew you were really, really terrified of it. I didn't mind though - it wasn't why I enjoyed your company. Then I realised I just hadn't seen you for ages, and probably wasn't even in the country any more, and well, yes.
I don't remember which tube station it was, either. And I don't know if there was a reason, either. Strange things happen in London. I would like to see you again, sometime, though. :)
(I say this too much, given whenever I do make it back to the UK I end up seeing only a few of the people I've said this to. But I mean it every time.)
I'm not as strong as I was then. :)
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What's your twitter? I'm at niallds.
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I guess I should. I kind of assume people will follow facebook for that kind of info, though... I don't know! Maybe I'll do that more. (Though I am firmly against LoudTwitter and all it represents.)
I will always consider you a friend, Cel! Miss you too. Hope I'll get to see you and the girls again before too long. x
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I hope we get to see you soon too! Any plans to move back yet?
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No plans as yet. Lots of thinking going on though! We'll see, we'll see...
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