they say that quitters never win ( Read more... )

You know how there are days that just every sad song that's played just happens to perfectly fit your life?  Welcome to my past week.  So I wrote Jon this note right, and it says pretty much everything I haven't wanted to say for a really long time, and it helped to get out what I did, but there's so much more I want to say.  And thinking about it ( Read more... )

i think its time to put what happened in the past.
we're done and over.
i'm walking away from that.
and from you. probably for good.
because i'm finally doing "what's good for me"

<3.jessica

life. sucks. period.
and then you die.
and then it gets better.
or so i would assume.

this problem's gonna last more than the weekend.

i miss you. period. end of story. there is no other way to put it.
you were the bright part of my days.
the apple of my eye.
i can't believe you're actually gone.
so far away.

Dear whoever actually decides to read this ( Read more... )

i look around at everyone i know
and i just think to myself
they all look so happy.
i just want to feel that,
i only want to know what that happiness feels like,
because honestly, i don't know if i've been good enough
for that kind of happiness,
that kind of love.
it's special, it has to be.
a love like that has to be special.
it has to be something you ( Read more... )

Vegas Vacation ( Read more... )

My life is a whirlwind.
That's really all there is to say.

I guess I'm celebrating Christmas with my family on Friday. And I'm babysitting. So the baby gets to come to Christmas with me too. That's interesting.

We started im basketball like 2 weeks ago. I'm having a lot of fun.

I leave for Vegas next Saturday. Thank goodness. That's a way to spend ( Read more... )

I think I've accepted the fact that he's gone,
but the truth of the matter is,
you're going to have to live with the fact that you killed him
for the rest of your life.
that will haunt your nightmares
and make you sick all the time...
but it was your fault.
and his too, but he didn't have the chance to feel
the way you do now.

i dont really have anything ( Read more... )

Oy.  I've pretty much messed up big time this time.  I don't know what else to do anymore.  It's not that I don't like him, it's just that I don't love him.  And love's a big word.  And I can honestly tell you right now, that I, being seventeen years old and quite dumb, am in love with someone who I know can never feel it back.  And it sucks so ( Read more... )