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Goodbye.

You know, maybe it was dumb of me. Maybe I was just wanting to feel something so bad that I convinced myself I actually felt it.

I don't want to believe that, but maybe I should...for my own sake.

Me: "I have to say something. I can't help it. I can't really say for sure if I'm in love with you...but I love you."
Her: ":) I love you too. I've ( Read more... )

Fuck.

Fuck.

Fuck.

Fuck.

Life is a cruel joke.

At the age of 23, I truly believed that I had found something beautiful. For once in my life, something felt real. I said "I love you" for the first time. My hands shook and it was an incredible feeling ( Read more... )

I hope he treats you like shit.

On to better things.

I saw Coke Bust, Give, and Lion of Judah last night in Nashville. Great bands, great show. Felt nice to do something other than work.

Football all day. Sports keep me sane these days.

This is my song to you, not that you'll ever see this journal. Thanks for nothing.

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No one knows how I feel.
No one has any idea what kind of thoughts go through my head.
Nothing has changed.
I'm unhappy.
I'll wake up tommorrow, and still nothing will change.

I wanted to make you my everything.
Why do I do this...

What the fuck am I doing to myself?

I feel like I'm losing my grip once again, and maybe for the last time.

My mind has never had so many thoughts running through it. This last week has made such an impact on me, but for once it's not obvious. I'm to a point where I'm numb, but not sad, just indifferent. I am terrible at explaining this feeling, but anyone who has felt it knows exactly what I'm talking about ( Read more... )