I just had the most intensely racist thought I've ever had in my life. Would you like to know how it went? You may be surprised ( Read more... )

Would I stop feeling down if there was no one and nothing left to lose?

Where are the answers? Does anyone have them?

What is there to know; all this is what it is.

I'm sorry.

Do you remember that day ( Read more... )

What the fuck is this shit? I can't fucking post in LJ because I don't want people making shitfucking retarded accusations of me being this that or the other. And I can't talk to people because over the years of being emotionally abused by some fucking twat I just can't open up unless I am drunk as a skunk ( Read more... )

I just had a memory of this farmland an hour or two north of Sacramento. I drove through, early one morning, a year and a half ago.

WHY THE FUCK DID I HAVE TO WAKE UP IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT?????? Now I am never going to sleep, and some cuntshitwhorefuckpisswhittler has just infuriated me beyond reason with insinuations of what seems to be my apparent superficiality. NO WONDER I DON'T TALK TO PEOPLE ABOUT ANYTHING SIGNIFICANT.

Well, at least I never have to go back to Apple Valley.

What it boils down to is that I am troubled, no matter where I am, no matter what I do. Is it because I have problems for which there are no solutions? Or is it because I have the capacity to concern myself with the life I live and the people I know and love ( Read more... )

UH OH! I REALLY NEED TO SPILL THE BEANS TO SOMEONE SOON. Preferably naked.

It's only the 30th?

Whatever.

I don't know why, but men who get my number and actually call me are pretty fucking silly. Am I being a shit because I gave it out and won't answer? YES! But people wrongly assume I am easy or something.

I have this horrible fear of my intestines escaping, now... Way to go!