Last year's goals were to embrace change and not fear my own mistakes.

This year I will learn to listen twice as much as I speak.

One of my kids got a foster placement today, the girl we always talked about, and you're the only person I wanted to tell. I know us not talking anymore is for the best but fuck the last couple of days have been hard. I've spent almost every waking moment trying not to think about you because if I let go for even one second I don't know how I'll ( Read more... )

I wish you had loved me enough to want to marry me. I wish you had cared enough to buy me flowers and send me cards. I wish you had known that I was the one and were willing to change, to do what needed to be done and it not feel like a chore. I wish I had known from the beginning what to look for, because the signs were there that I wasn't the ( Read more... )

How can you break an already broken heart ( Read more... )

Funny how when everything falls apart, I come right back here ( Read more... )

The weight of your past rests on my shoulders. I could never hurt anyone the way you've been hurt, yet somehow I feel responsible for fixing damage done by monsters. I want to take you home and put you in my bed and hold you until you feel safe enough to sleep through the night. I want to fight off every person who sees your weakness as ( Read more... )

The only sure thing about life is death.

I wish I could say that I wish you the best but I don't ( Read more... )

I'm an idiot for letting my guard down again.

All I wanted was to stand next to you. All I've ever pictured for this day was to be the one to touch up your make-up, give you a reassuring squeeze and tuck that one last strand of hair into place. But all the desire in the world to be your "best" doesn't make a difference when you yourself no longer care enough to want me there. I guess what ( Read more... )