to be strait forward with everyone i know. im contemplating suicide. you have no idea what my life is like, none of you do. and its my fault. because i hide how i feel. and whats happening to everyone because i dont beleive anyone should have to deal with it. but now my shit has overflowed and multiple people are involved and i dont know what to do ( Read more... )

so blah blah blah. read read read. is that all we do do. anyone whos reading this is probably surfing the web. or has surfed the web at some point so tell me. what do you do when you surf the web? personally i paruze through others personal journals and blog sites reading the mindless babble that is their lives. or just listen to music. but either ( Read more... )

after carefully reading my recent posts ive realized that most if not all of you probably rarely read my entries because im boaring. my posts are no where near the exciting mindless babble they used to be, and for that i appologize. so what the fuck. who have i become. what happend to the rambling idiot of yesteryear. and where did this uptight ( Read more... )

ok so i was sitting around watching people play NES today and i thought, how wonderful would it be to post about this ( Read more... )

so yeah i got D Runk last night holy fuck, it sucked at 4 am when the party was gone and i was still up waiting for 2 members of the party to return. but they got back shortly after that. ya know i almost forgot how much better it is to live like this. thats my post. id you dont like it tough shit

so if yall dont already know i have the net again, i have an apartment again. so fuckin kryst i live here. yall know me. get ahold of me

so i assume i deserve to feel the way i do. actually i know i do.

so ive decided that because my life needs some major aligning. not only for myself. but for my love, my darling, my beautiful soul mate. im enlisting in The United States Armed Forces. i will be enlisting on April 3rd. i know its silly. but i want time to mend the broken things that are at hand at the moment. let the scattered few who care know ( Read more... )

im going to go buy a gun, and im going to kill. every 1 of the mother fuckers that cant be trusted

who really cares. i know she cares, i know i care, i know a few select other people care. but when freinds who youve known forever stop caring it hurts. i dont really know what to do anymore. i feel very depressed one minute and happy the next. i get angry for pointless reasons and im not really sure why. some say its being bi polar but i wouldnt ( Read more... )