Like a dark cloud over my everything.

The feeling of loneliness.

It constricts my lungs, twists my heart. Feels like lead in my stomach.

I don't want to be alone.

Is it so wrong to want to be saved, just once?

*sigh*

My world is bleak. My heart is broken. My hope is lost.

"In the end, we all die alone"

The first time I heard that line, I cried. It struck such a nerve with me.

It is my greatest fear.

And with every abandonment, my fear becomes more a reality.

I don't want to be alone...

...but I have no choice.

Live alone.

Die alone.

Always, alone.

I feel like giving up. I really do. A black cloud has descended upon me.

I am cast adrift, alone in a barely seaworthy vessel. The waves crash against the side, swirling and tormenting. I am clinging on, but for what?

My love is gone. No longer cares. Yet another that's turned their back. Not a word. No explanation, and it kills me. I never wanted to ( Read more... )