I felt really warm inside today. It was a warmth I haven't felt in quite some time.

I think my days of being a "vindictive bitch" may be just about over.

I'm gonna go hug my kitties.

So, been battling with depression a little bit lately. I'm confident I'll get through it some way, somehow... But it certainly isn't making things easy right now. These days, I pick fights with Brad on a regular basis about things that normal people don't worry about. I'm honestly kind of surprised that he continues to put up with it. I'd like ( Read more... )

Right now, I am feeling so heartbroken that my chest actually hurts.

I would MUCH rather sit here with my purring grey kitty in my lap all day than go to work. Sigh.

By nature, I'm just neurotic and hyper-sensitive. But relationships sure do make me bipolar sometimes.

Kinda makes things hard sometimes.

My mind was all over the place on the ride home tonight ( Read more... )

I just read through some of my entries from years ago, and discovered that I haven't changed at all as a person. Terrible.

I have a HUGE zit on my chin. It literally makes me angry that I'm 24 and I still get these ginormous infected puss-filled monstrosities from time to time. When I went through puberty, all the magazines I read said that pimples would eventually go away. Wtf happened to that? I am still waiting ( Read more... )

I bought a new car today. It's a silver 2006 Accord, 5-speed, with 78k miles. It's a pretty decent car. What I was originally looking for was a Civic or a Corolla because they are smaller and a little cheaper than, say, an Accord or a Camry. In fact, I probably could have gotten a 2008 Corolla for what I paid for the Accord, and gotten a little ( Read more... )

So, I've developed a new night time ritual - crying before I fall asleep. Not "crying myself to sleep", per se; just crying, feeling a little relief, and then falling asleep. And it's been a few different things that have been keeping me awake. For instance, the past two nights, I've relived my surgery. Before that, it was an awful awful ( Read more... )