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Please talk to me I ask him. He tells me we are all going through a hard time. I cry. I cryLet the MUSIC run through my brain, and drown out all my sick pain. Every sound is pleasure to my hurt. Crying as I write, it somehow will heal my wounds.
My life has so much other important shit going on than this, and yet I can't move forward to worry about ( Read more... ) -
Life Experiences
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Life Experiences.
What life experiences have I had.
From birth I've experienced life without a father.
As a child I was moved around to different schools learning how to adapt,adjust. Getting picked on constantly taught me how to be tough.
Some traumas in my life have turned me upside down, insane, downright crazy. I learned ( Read more... ) -
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The family Christmas tree after Santa came to see our our 3 yr old daughter. Our older two are visiting with their Mom for Xmas in CT. this yr. It is becoming more pleasent now. I have recovered from my sadness over the death of Linda for the time being. Of course finding out Tuesday that I have cancer in my cervix has brought me to focus on now ( Read more... ) -
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Today, and yesterday have been fucking emotionally draining. Nothing in the now that is disturbing me. Just the death of Linda haunting me every moment I think. I have been crying on & off for more than a week, hell more than that. This shit inside hurts me so much and I don't want to burden people with this sadness that I feel. I mean I know I am ( Read more... ) -
Love Me
I need too much love.
I require too much attention.
Although, I'm quite the pleasure.
Where does this all measure?
I wonder sometimes.
Is it really all me?
Maybe this will go away and set me free.
Wanting to linger against warm skin.
Sensing the scent of him.
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I'm bored.
And I have almost completed my GED. :) I finally took three out of five tests, and passed! I am thrilled about that.
But then again, I'm bored. I feel I need to do so much more with my life.
