"During her erotic seizures she would hurl blasphemous insults at her victims. Blasphemous insults and cries like the baying of a she-wolf were her means of expression as she stalked, in a passion, the gloomy rooms ( Read more... )

( paintings changed )

i had an awesome dream last night about a girl i don't know/have never met.. if only she existed in reality ( Read more... )

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caffiene doesn't make me productive.. the internet makes me depressed.. fuck.. thinking makes me depressed.. i need to get my mind focused on my assey.. yes i'm writing about elizabeth bathory.. "the bloody countess".. i should be excited about this.. but the fear of the rath of my english prof failing me prevents any pleasure from occuring. i have ( Read more... )

I seem to be really good at fucking up before i've even started. Today was depressing. I saw a bachelor appt that is 400$.. its basically a back shed turned into a room and toilet with a sink and stove/fridge. Its a pit.. run down pit.. but affordable. i'd have to sign a year lease.. which sucks and the landlord seems weird. I don't know why i said ( Read more... )

i have no energy.. my bed is the only place i want to be.. my head feels drugged.

i need to tell my doctor that the meds don't work.. they make me a depressed zombie.. but then it'll be more meds.. i thought he'd realise they don't work when i cut myself.. apparently not.

( new paintings (in progress) )

clip from the movie "henry and june" (based on anais nin's diaries).