Well, I have a plan. A big one. Hopefully in a few months, I will be flying north to Alaska. I'm saving every cent I get my grubby mitts on until then. I'm going to work on a fishing boat in the great white north. I will work my ass off on that frozen sea, then go straight to where my heart is. I'm nervous and scared, for real. But more determined ( Read more... )

I guess I'm giving myself a couple weeks

If I had a role model, maybe they could tell me how I should feel. Cant connect. I feel like I'm being dulled down. Calloused. I feel how I used to feel. Maybe I should drink some coffee, get my head straight, write it all out. Maybe I should go swimming. I cant sleep, I cant even imagine sleeping. I'm haunted. I ask for too much and give too ( Read more... )

I decided I am going to be a bluesman and a carpenter. I want to restore antique furniture and build my own damn house and take union classes. And I want to play slide guitar while wearing a toolbelt.

I think I need to go into isolation for a few weeks. I dont know what to do, say, think, or feel.
I've been learning how to play blues guitar, it's pretty therapeutic.. but it doesnt really last. Maybe I just need to focus on it more/ if the guitars always on my mind, she wont be?

Man, this staying positive bullshit fucking sucks. I tried to stay positive all week, and now things are ten times worse! Tomorrow (today) I am going to just work my aggression out on this house my grandfather bought, ia m going to tear the shit out of the floor and walls so hopefully by the end of the day, i will feel better and have finished the ( Read more... )

No matter what happens, I'll always land on my feet.

So I've been trying to figure out how to make ramen noodles better. it isnt going so well. I've also been trying to quit smoking. That isn't working out so great, either.

At least I have Tom Goes to the Mayor to keep shit live.

Also, I'm fucking stoked on Rachel coming back from Canada to be with me in two motherfucking weeks!

whoa, whats up livejournal? its been a whiile. i started reading watchmen..its so boring. ive been blasting music and sleeping in warm places, so thats good. my power is out at my house, because im so tight i didnt pay the bill. im at helen's right now, she was SUPPOSED to be home like 2 hours ago, i hope i dont fall asleep on her couch ( Read more... )

Well I dated a really cool girl for a short time, but I guess I'm just too busy with work and fucking up to focus on that. I'm moving to an apartment on broadway and baxter here in like 2 weekz, thats tight. i guess I should buy a car? i dont want one that bad, but I guess I need one sorta ( Read more... )