so yesterday nathan and i got into an argument because he was having a bad day, and he just blew up at me ( Read more... )

my weekend was awesome. nathan bought me calla lillies on friday with a puppy that said i belong to you. don't get excited it was just a stuffed one. its so cute. you can imagine how happy i was after a 3 hour bus ride, and waiting anxiously for him to get home to see him come in with flowers. it was such a treat. i love it. they're sitting on the ( Read more... )

well nate and i had another great weekend. he bought world of warcraft, so we've been playing all weekend. it saves us money on going out. *grins* thats not why we do it though. we do it because we enjoy it. i got an awesome massage and you talk about relaxed. we also played poker with his dad and d'ann. that was fun. brian, tim and dawn were there ( Read more... )

yesterday i got nate a new graphics card. one of the best ones on the market. it was his v-day present and i couldn't wait to give it to him. he loved it....i was the shit all night. i am the coolest. he was upset about how much i spent but its all good in the hood. i want to get him the cologne and aftershave he wants. he bought world warcraft ( Read more... )

so nate and i had an awesome weekend. spent time with family and each other. it was so awesome to just be with him. i loved it. we get all excited about seeing each other, and its awesome. he came and saw me friday, saturday and sunday. we hung out and cuddled and kissed and talked and did all the cutsy things that make you wanna barf. we went for ( Read more... )

so i almost lost nate, but luckily i didn't. our relationship is in a kinda rut, but to make a long story short we started all over again with clean slates and its all good in the hood ( Read more... )

so i'm gonna see nathan tomorrow. i'm gonna buy a little something special for him to wear underneath my skirt. i'm getting all dolled up for him tomorrow. i got a new skirt and i'm gonna do my hair and make up. i hope its all worth it. i hope he notices. i'm worried. is it worth it?we'll find out.

i hid my feelings so much in my last relationship, and i hated it. it was sheer hell. although matt was inconsiderate about our time together. i always got an i love you or a flower he picked. the physical time we spent together was great and we got along then. he never lost any passion or desire for me. but i constantly hid my disappointment and ( Read more... )

i really wish things were like they were when nate and i first started going out. he was so sweet, he always finds a reason to caress me and kiss me. now it seems like the flames have died out. i want the old nathan back. the one that used to tell me how beautiful i was. or the one who always called to say i love you. i want him to be his old sweet ( Read more... )

so nathan came over. we watched movies and snuggled. me him and the puppies. the puppies had him for one whole movie, then i kicked em off. it was my turn. i have to say. this transition thing is really hard, but not as hard as i had expected. it still sucks not to wake up and see him next to me. its a big disappointment every day. i know it sounds ( Read more... )