i like being away from home. i like having interesting things to do, and places to go. the people aren't as mean and it's not as scary as everyone makes it out to be. the weather's been nice lately. the people aren't pretty. they look tired and run down. i have only seen 2 cute boys and that is all.I like not having a mother figure to agonize me. i ( Read more... )

i can't stop fucking crying. my dog died this morning fucking snakes and their fucking venom i hate them i hate them i hate them i didn't play with him enough and i neglected him too much and i was an awful mommy i never took him on walks or out to play because i'm a lazy fucking asshole and pitiful ( Read more... )

"I want first kisses and passion the whole way through"
-jeannine G. in Reality Bites

I'm more convinced now than ever that some people are sent to us for certain reasons,and at certain times when we need someone to make us understand why life is worth living. Almost every other aspect of life is shit right now, and just seeing him made me forget all of it, and my life seemed a little close to normal. I know you're sick of hearing ( Read more... )

i'm so emotional today. I'm in english class right now and i'm feeling hopeless. I'm that girl in class that just isn't on the same level with everyone else. They all have opinions, and know about "important" people and events going on in the world. Who the fuck is Ted Nugent? And why can't I read articles and question them and form opinions and ( Read more... )

i was thinking today that i should stop thinking. we all should. over-analyzing and looking too deeply into things has ruined a lot. Having questions and wanting answers is way too tiring.
Let's just live and let things happen, and not wonder.

my entire life, i've felt that I can't express my feelings or true thoughts to my family. they always make me feel so dumb and insignificant. i can never answer their questions truthfully in fear that my answer will be something they don't want to hear, or something that will upset them and provoke a lecture. I can't even tell my grandpa what my ( Read more... )

last night i looked at the post secret book at barnes and noble, and it was so inspiring. moreso than the website for some reason. This morning I made a list of my secrets and things I've been hiding. Things I've been too afraid to even write down on paper previously. And it was so liberating. I cannot explain how empowered I felt after writing ( Read more... )

yesterday was my last day at the gap!!
i worked until 5:24 am...RIDICULOUS.
one day i will find a job that i really enjoy...

sometimes i forget that i'm only 18, and still somewhat of a child. Somewhere along the line, I started believing that I could do whatever the hell I want, when I want. Sometimes I don't realize that I can't have everything I want, and that I can't escape everything I don't want to face. I cannot always talk my way out of doing things I don't want ( Read more... )