so when asked if I am ok I sadly reply yes. I am not sure that I am indeed ok.

So I like my ps3 and I like brownies. This kid fucked me up. I know because I saw him last night, and I was still drawn to him. I don't know if I make things worse by being myself around him, or if he's completely floored in some sort of way that some girl (me) really wants him. To hard to read, and doesn't believe me when I say no strings ( Read more... )

and I'm over it I guess. Haven't really thought about it.

I really need to write, I don't know what is wrong with me. He was there last night, I felt very weird in the beginning but towards the end I was like myself again... So we were talking I told him a few Brenda-like things and such and managed to feel a little better about it. As the night progressed I ended up talking to a bunch of different ( Read more... )

I hate mondays. I'm really down today, partially because no one is around and I don't have anything to take my mind off of him. I am convinced I just need to stop letting myself like people. No, I just need to stop wanting to give people a chance. Ok I promise no more bitching about this.

Chuck. I met/knew this boy... well I've known him for a while, I just officially met him again about a month ago. For some reason that fateful Saturday night I started to fall, and then I started to think. I couldn't wait to see him again, and so I did very much so by accident the Wed, before I left for California. We ended up kissing in the ( Read more... )

So i was "left behind" friday night of all irritatingness (if thats a fucking word) that bitch can blow me... and then there was a huge fight with the boyfriend. Uh everything is fucking stupid.

So I am holding true to this ( Read more... )

ack sometimes you figure out how much things suck ass at the wrong moments. then other times you could completely not give a shit about them. I've lost my typing skills...and any urge to write anything valid in here. uhm....so did i hear pot.

so if i could just not cry for one day it might be nice