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[ Moss Agate and Sudden fear. ]
Moss agate is totally my power stone. I started wearing the moss agate pendant I made in high school again, (I wore it most of the summer, when I felt I was improving as a person) and every time I put it on I am just overwhelmed with positive feelings and confidence. I love it. Whenever I wear moss agate I find myself a bit more introspective. I ( Read more... ) -
[ YAY ]
So, on Christmas day, after family stuff is done, Jessica and I are going on a road trip!
She's going to Vermont to see her boyfriend, and on the way shes going to drop me off in New York (the state not the city!) to see RICHARRRRD
Its hard to think we havent seen each other in almost half a year. I miss my twin every single day. :(
I finally ( Read more... ) -
[ Chemical Dreamer ]
Alright. So. For the past two nights I have been having really freaky, really vivid dreams that usually involve me breaking down somehow.
For instance
Last night I dreamt I was staying at my parents place and all of a sudden we started noticing that weird letter combinations were written on a bunch of the rocks in our little back yard pond. Stuff ( Read more... ) -
[ Everything you needed to know about being a hero brought to you by Kevin Sorbo ]
I was remembering writing this around a year ago and wanted to dig it up and re-post it, because it's still very true.
LIFE LESSONS LEARNED FROM HERCULES, THE LEGENDARY JOURNEYS:
-everyone, absolutely everyone deserves the benefit of the doubt.
-forgiving other people for their mistakes should come naturally. forgiving yourself for your own mistakes ( Read more... ) -
[ dreams that hurt. ]
Woke up crying today.
Feeling bare as the trees, bare as bone.
Dreams plagued me.
Dreams of my fathers funeral
And I was singing here comes the sun because he used to sing it to me in the crib.
and somebody had died because of me somehow.
And I was walking in a cold, bare alleyway in some other state
And every member of my family was crowded around me
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[ I need an Oracle. ]
I feel rotten from the inside out. Brown and mealy. Crawling with bugs ( Read more... ) -
[ . ]
I seriously feel like I am the only one in the world not getting laid.
I haven't been intimate since may.
I can't help but feel like Im repulsive or something. People fatter than me get laid though, so why can't I? Why does nobody want me? Why can't someone I'm attracted to actually find me attractive at all? What is wrong with me that I am so ( Read more... ) -
[ About love. ]
I had a dream last night. I was travelling, Im not sure where to but I was. We were on a train or something. All I remember is scenery blurring past me. Lots of farmland.
I met someone. A guy. I can't remember his face or what he looked like. We were no longer on the train. I think it crashed or something because we had no money or any of our ( Read more... ) -
[ What I am and what I want to be ]
I am lonely.
I am procrastinating.
I am far away.
I am a creature filled with anger towards many people and things
that stays at a steady
simmer.
People take advantage of me
and disrespect me a lot.
I want to be with someone. I want love.
I want to be successful
and motivated.
I want to be a creature of forgiveness
but not necessarily
someone you can ( Read more... ) -
[ Autumn as myself ]
Concrete
cold, hard and sure-
solid
beneath my feet.
The sky is gray. Not sad gray,
not dreary gray
just gray.
Flowers still clinging
desperately
feebly
to the memory of summer
hang from my eyelashes
like rain drops.
The air is crisp with
cigarette smoke
and coldness
and a strange sort of isolation.
Deep down we know
we are what we wish we were.
we were just ( Read more... )