Nature, I have a warning for you. You took my Douglas Adams. I was sad. You've just taken my Kurt Vonnegut. I'm now sad and pissed. If you touch my Michale Chabon, I'm coming after you.

I'm not sure I'm even corporeal anymore. Days blend into nights and back into days. Weeks end and begin. At some point I sleep. I'm not sure for how long. Applications still not sent out. Spring break was a bust. I worked. Hospital, Gamestop...there might have been the lab too ( Read more... )

A bit of a warning as this post might contain the rantings of a person obsessed ( Read more... )

Another sleepless night. In the previous week I worked 3 nights in a row. My cycle has been screwed up ever since. I'll sleep in short sprees or great durations. I've finally decided to just get some more sleeping pills, though it is a bit late considering classes start in 4 days. Is it 4? Break seemed to run together in more stream on ( Read more... )

83rd percentile....

Technically I can get into med school with this.

I just hope my application and experiences are enough

I don't think I anticipated doing such things to myself. If it's not papers it's presentations, if it's not presentations it's data analyzing, or the hospital, or Gamestop, or the lab, or just keeping my word. Something which I've found myself breaking more recently due to poor planning on my part or just exhaustion ( Read more... )

I'm not sure under what circumstances I thought that I could do all this. It's like intellectual masochism, but its effects seep into the realms of physical and emotional ( Read more... )

So this is it. In less than 24 hours I will be filling in bubbles on the longest test I will have ever taken. I've studied about as much as I can and only hope that I don't make little mistakes that can screw me over.

But I'm not afraid. I can't be.

I have memorized all that I can in biology. 3 sections left. 10 days left. I have 5 practice tests to do before then ( Read more... )

Last night I had a dream. In my dream I actually felt the happiness that I so often reach for but always find it just out of my grasp. I think I actually felt its warmth instead of just knowing that it was there. For a brief instant I even forgot that this was the land of Nod and thought it was my own reality. Like all dreams, it had to come to an ( Read more... )