Friday was the 3rd anniversary of Whitney's death. I listened to the song on the Wicked soundtrack...."For the Better" probably 5 or 6 times on my way to Damien's. He came and sat with me in the car while I cried. We spent the weekend in Niagara Falls with his family - he took good care of me though because he held me while I kept crying on the ( Read more... )

We didn't have any shows at my bar last weekend, which meant no work, so Damien invited me to go to Conneaut Lake Park with him and his family (which includes his drummer, who I had a surprsingly in depth conversation about abortion with at Arby's...). We had a blast! I hadn't been to an amusement park in years, and this one was run down, and ( Read more... )

Some things are worth waiting for. <3

He said to me the other day "I can't begin to convey to you how happy you make me. I smile when your name appears with a text, I'm elated when when I see you, I'm in ecstasy when we kiss." That's it exactly. I can't describe how I feel, but he knows, he feels the same, and that's all the matters. <3

ImagingUSA was this past week. Nashville this year. Very fun. I learned some stuff and bought an accessory kit for my speedlight which I'm kinda thinking of trying out right now but it's 2am and I'm tired. But it's cool, so maybe I will. Yeah. I'm kind of out of it right now. It's been a productive day though - I did some cleaning and ( Read more... )

Currently bored, waiting for Kayla to show up - I wanted to leave an hour ago to go Christmas shopping, but Kayla is Kayla and perpetually late. We're headed to Robinson where I have to go print my cousin Tiffany's Christmas present (meant to order it online, but somehow it didn't end up in the order I placed last week...), get stuff for a bunch ( Read more... )

Saturday was Alicia's baby shower. Rosa had Cody James on Nov 6. There was another girl there with a 2 1/2 month old. Also on Saturday we found out that Doria, Becca's mom, died. Viewing is tomorrow, funeral the next day. The cycle of life and death. I'm shocked at Doria's death, and sad, because I really liked her ( Read more... )

I wonder if the future is really as bright as we make it out to be. Looking forward and having hope is what gets some people through the day, through the year. We work towards our goals. But looking at some of my older friends, I contemplate the truth of this. A good bit of my friends are in their late 20s or early 30s and are still single and ( Read more... )

It's been a year today. On September 23, 2008, Whitney Jo Maguire, formerly O'Brien, died in a car accident. She was 21. Her fiance and two-year-old son survived the crash. It's been one year and it still hurts. I've been near tears since last night. One year. I haven't seen Liam, her son, since Christmas. I...I don't know. I hurt. Ache ( Read more... )

Sometimes I think I'm really dumb. I used to be happy, really happy, and I threw it away. Way to go, Elena. Not to say that I'm not happy now - I have amazing friends who I hang out with constantly, I have The Fallout Shelter and the bands, but I'm still lonely. I had a boyfriend for almost 5 years straight so not having one kind of throws me ( Read more... )