wow... its been a while...

lots of shit has gone down and gotten over with, or just gotten worse. i have thoughts going through my head again.. which may not be a good thing, but i enjoy it. its the only thing i can try to control. and im broke.. good excuse eh? id say so. oh well...

over nick...

kind of had a guy names ricky.....

over ricky.....

now with timmy....

something seems a little odd, but im happy :D

over nick...

kind of had a guy names ricky.....

over ricky.....

now with timmy....

something seems a little odd, but im happy :D

im so happy.. i have my nick.. and hes such a sweety. last night on the phone he told me that if i stood in front of a mirror holding 11 roses, id see the 12 most beautiful things in the world. cheesey.. yes.. but deffinetly cute. i love my boy. im goin so i can take a shower and wait for him to call me back.

happy fucking new years to me. i was supposed to be still downtown.. and there was a guy that i was going to talk to that has liked me forever.. and im realizing that i like him too... but then dad called and was like "well i was gonna let you stay later, but i have to get up (by like 10) in the morning ( Read more... )

im going back to my old ways. thanks to all of you dip shits whohave made me realize i have to. <3

yay! im actually updating! its not going to be all the special. not much going on. ive been wicked depressed lately. i think if i had a bf that would help, but ya know what? im fat and ugly and i think i scare all of them away..... anywho. like i said this isnt going to be to spectacular.. cause im already out of things to say ( Read more... )

What Would You Do If ( Read more... )

once again thinking about jameson.... :( and how i dont think i have a chance with him. i need to loose more weight. then maybe hell think im hot or something so he will like me. i know alot of people are saying that i have a good chance of getting with him now, as i am, but he deserves better. he deserves a hot girl, not an ugly, fat...... thing ( Read more... )

the one dave mathews song that i can actually handle.... kinda scarey ( Read more... )