Okay so it really has been a long time since I've written in here.. yeah... I'm 18 now.. kind of scary if you think about it.. HAHA. Anyways things are going okay. I'm going to school now, it's pretty fun. I'm enjoying it. Well I just thought I would stop by and check in.

Why is it I'm always being left alone.. I hate being alone.. why can't my parents or anyone ever understand that. I hate going out and being around new ppl b/c I'm have that stupid anti social disorder shit. So its hard... but no one fucking understands I hate being alone.. But in the end.. I'm always left alone. BLAH!! Whats so wrong with me....

Someone please tell me what's so damned special about him.. so I can find someone better than him.

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Well here I am to update this thing.. life sucks.. my sis will be in DT soon.. if she doesn't call the officer by monday I'm going to. Court is on the 19th and here I am counting away dreding every minute that passes. I'm going down hill and working my way off the edge. Life sucks and everything just seems to be getting worse. I'm not sure what to ( Read more... )

I used to think yea it does.. but its been so long.. my heart hasn't healed yet.. I'm starting to think it never will. I only hope I could find someone as good as 'you' maybe I'll find someone better. I'll never know and I'm sure I wont know til its gone.. cuz thats the way my life seems to work. Life is getting harder and I'm slipping.. and I'm ( Read more... )

Hmm well this week has SUCKED.. but hmm doesn't most of my life go that way?! YUP. Well it all started BRIGHT and fucking early on monday morning. I went to the huntsman center to get (as I was thinking) just a normal every 3 fucking month pap, But nope of course not I was wrong.. I had to get a fucking biopsy done on my god damned cervix. Yea that ( Read more... )

**sigh** My poor poor sister... she's hurting so bad yet I can't do shit about it. I wish I could I wish I could just take it all away, but I can't.. I can't. Her stupid boyfriend tells her he doesn't know if he loves her.. yet shes sitting there crying telling him how much she loves him.. my heart is breaking hearing this.. hearing her hurt and ( Read more... )

Why is it everyone always depends on me to help them with their problems? Why is it only a few turn around to help me?... I'm so worn out.. I can't do this anymore... I can't do anything anymore.. I'm so useless.. so depressed and nothing makes it better.. not even talking anymore.. I can't just forget about it because its everywhere, its all I see ( Read more... )

What's coming through is alive ( Read more... )